so my shits like fo reals y0
Got the internet working on my phone again, now the bus rides in to work won't be so dull.
Finished another Diabolik Switches track last night, its up on our myspace "shocking Asia"
Looking at all the stuff we're working on, we've got 6 new tracks completed, and another 7 or so that need finishing. I also ordered the mising cord for gene's digital recording mixer, and another cord for his juno 1. And next pay day I order the Alesis QS6.1; the synth I lost on my venture back from L.A.
Mom took Sean Dani and I to see wicked. I didn't enjoy it that much, for a number of reasons. I don't like how some shows feel the need to wrap up every single loose end and explain every detail and the origin of each detail, it seemed too forced, too fake. Secondly it reminded me too much of Maddi, there was this scene where the wicked witch was fake-dancing bad, and It made my stomach fold in half. She use to sparatically do that, a commercial or a theme song to a tv show could be on and she'd pretend to fake dance, and whenever she looked up and made eye contact she'd bust up laughing.
In any matter it hit a little to close for me.
It got me to thinking about everything and how it went down, and how she dropped off the face of the earth at the snap of her douchebag boyfriends fingers,
I realizied I never had any closure, any resolve, and that I am really sick of seeing her car, or somethiing the reminds me of her and having my heart drop, I'm sick of not feeling ok with the way things turned out.
Now I'm not saying that I'm not totally happy and in love with the Wendy, because I am, I just can't shake this feeling, this rotting in my gut that something isn't right, and somehow it has to do with maddi. I tried asking her to have a face to face and she was nothing but rude and defensive as to my motives, which I half expected, but then again a part of me hoped she'd want to sit down and catch up and talk about shit.
I guess I figured she'd be a little more grown up about it, but then there is clint, and he's pulling all her strings now, and I should respect the fact that he gives her the abuse I never could and that she's happy with that.
Fuck it man, I'm just sick of hurting, of letting my past fuck with my present, I don't want my relationship with my ex have any effect on my relationship with my girlfriend now, I've let it happen too many times before, and I just can't fuck this up.
In other news, to get off my ex-rant Lysa's djing at groovesuite tonight, you all should come, and you all should tell your friends! It's gonna be fun, and its only 5$
I really want to cover System of a Down's song, I can't remember the name of the track but the chorus goes "pushing little children with their fully automatics! They like to push the weak around!"
That fucking line gets stuck in my head on loop and I feel the urge to want to kick the snot out of a cop and scream it at full volume. Just saying
Uhg its monday, my 3 day weekend was not long enough, taco night was awesome, though it does erk me when people promise to show and then flake, maybe cause I rarely flake on people especially when food and booze is involved.
My lady bought me the entire Twilight Zone dvd set, 45 dvd's, every episode and bonus features. I'll be watching it through the next year haha.
I need to get my tickets to Ladytron and the Faint on may first, and my tickets to the zombie prom, well there goes my paycheck.
Bah blah blah I'm bored now
Finished another Diabolik Switches track last night, its up on our myspace "shocking Asia"
Looking at all the stuff we're working on, we've got 6 new tracks completed, and another 7 or so that need finishing. I also ordered the mising cord for gene's digital recording mixer, and another cord for his juno 1. And next pay day I order the Alesis QS6.1; the synth I lost on my venture back from L.A.
Mom took Sean Dani and I to see wicked. I didn't enjoy it that much, for a number of reasons. I don't like how some shows feel the need to wrap up every single loose end and explain every detail and the origin of each detail, it seemed too forced, too fake. Secondly it reminded me too much of Maddi, there was this scene where the wicked witch was fake-dancing bad, and It made my stomach fold in half. She use to sparatically do that, a commercial or a theme song to a tv show could be on and she'd pretend to fake dance, and whenever she looked up and made eye contact she'd bust up laughing.
In any matter it hit a little to close for me.
It got me to thinking about everything and how it went down, and how she dropped off the face of the earth at the snap of her douchebag boyfriends fingers,
I realizied I never had any closure, any resolve, and that I am really sick of seeing her car, or somethiing the reminds me of her and having my heart drop, I'm sick of not feeling ok with the way things turned out.
Now I'm not saying that I'm not totally happy and in love with the Wendy, because I am, I just can't shake this feeling, this rotting in my gut that something isn't right, and somehow it has to do with maddi. I tried asking her to have a face to face and she was nothing but rude and defensive as to my motives, which I half expected, but then again a part of me hoped she'd want to sit down and catch up and talk about shit.
I guess I figured she'd be a little more grown up about it, but then there is clint, and he's pulling all her strings now, and I should respect the fact that he gives her the abuse I never could and that she's happy with that.
Fuck it man, I'm just sick of hurting, of letting my past fuck with my present, I don't want my relationship with my ex have any effect on my relationship with my girlfriend now, I've let it happen too many times before, and I just can't fuck this up.
In other news, to get off my ex-rant Lysa's djing at groovesuite tonight, you all should come, and you all should tell your friends! It's gonna be fun, and its only 5$
I really want to cover System of a Down's song, I can't remember the name of the track but the chorus goes "pushing little children with their fully automatics! They like to push the weak around!"
That fucking line gets stuck in my head on loop and I feel the urge to want to kick the snot out of a cop and scream it at full volume. Just saying
Uhg its monday, my 3 day weekend was not long enough, taco night was awesome, though it does erk me when people promise to show and then flake, maybe cause I rarely flake on people especially when food and booze is involved.
My lady bought me the entire Twilight Zone dvd set, 45 dvd's, every episode and bonus features. I'll be watching it through the next year haha.
I need to get my tickets to Ladytron and the Faint on may first, and my tickets to the zombie prom, well there goes my paycheck.
Bah blah blah I'm bored now