fuck titles you wont to know about what i wrote then read it jack ass

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i wish tania would talk to me, she says that i dont care and dont notes whats wrong but she dosent say anything so haw am i suposed to know that theres somthing wrong that she wont tell me about among the things that i do know about not to menchen she hates it when i figure out that theres somthing wrong that she was secretly hopoing ide figure out about. i just wish i new what to do to help her. she has no ide haw much her taking up her old passtime has woryed me. i was bizzy trying to get into my omline classes web sight and was having crapy trubl. tania wasnt realy responding to anything i said and hadent said anything on the ims. i was just distracted and it was stuped but i didnt say anything. i know i never do things to try to hurt people or anything like that but im not a good person realy. i have all this potenchal but i squander it. i could do so much more. i just wish i knew if tania still loved me, she says she does and i think she thinks she does and i know shes going throw hell naw but i dont know. last night my mom had a ten second call and rushed out to visit my aunt in the hospital and told me the docters dont think shill live and that i couldnt come with her. all i could do was sit and wait. i felt like i was . . . i dont know just somthing bad. i feel this way tonight worying about tania, i felt this way last time too, i felt this way when my grand father and father died but wors. hhhhh. i have never belived in God, god maby but not God. whel i also never realy belived in scrying or mined reading or fortne telling or love (at least for me) realy untill a little less then two years ago (give or take a lot of time depending wich thing lol). whell lower cas "g" god i could realy use a sigeret right naw. but haw about this ill cut it two 2 a day if you just make the path to fixing things clear to me. thats all i realy wont, for tania to be happy, for my aunt to be well, for my mom not to what ever me, and me? i dont know any more , no wait i know for me to learn spanish and be more talkative. wait both of those are me wonting to make others happy, i just wont people to be happy but what do i wont for me?
SHIT SHIT SHIT i finaly got into my classes sight and i have to finish up this work before midnight and i got distractide by a little thing like life and death, GOD IS AN IRON, i wont that on my tome stone