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yesterday was soo scary i went up to get confirmed and i was soo nervous i could hardly talk. My life has incredibly changed I think its for the best thought, im single and i'd like to stay that way for awhile unless i meet someone that i think will be somone i'll stay with for a long long time like i could imagine marrying them. I havent really been able to imagin marrying any of my bfs now that i think about it. My mom still wants me to like mike but i just want to be friends with him, idunno y my mom doesnt understand mike and i wouldnt make it for various reasons. Anyways i keep hearing weird weird things coming from johns computer about dogs wipping their privates on things its nasty. I accidently called the wrong number the other day and talked to the guy for about 10 mins cause i thought it was my friends friend, so i asked for my friend and he was like uh what i dont know anyone by that name so i felt extremly embarrassed and hung up, then about 5 mins later i called and appoligized to him, i felt like and idiot, i wanted to run and hide,lol. Isn't life interesting sometimes u feel like ur on cloud 9 other times u feel like your lonely as heck and other times ur embarrassed compleatly. I think getting confirmed is scary because ur its like a second baptism. I got baptized back when i was a baby the first time, and yesterday was like my second one, i cant belive it ive been in confirmation for 2 years now. anyways i had alot of time to think on friday night about getting confirmed i had alot of different feelings like can i keep a committment to god, ect. i came to the conclusion that i think i can, its like that lil kids book about the lil engine that could,lol. but i think i can do it i have made mistakes in my past that i really really regret, but this is the future and its in my control i could tottally screw it up, or i could watch waht i do and make alot i mean alot better decisions, i am going to, and i am making this promise not only to god but to myself taht i am going to have a much better future than some of my past. anyways comments are always appriciated(only nice ones please, i havent really got any mean comments b4, but i dont want any so only say nice things and if you have mean things to say dont say them.) I gotta get back to photo class, so later to all the people who read the journal of my life