winds of change
So here we are again.
I began some packing tonight for my 'new life' in Colorado. It's kind of hard to think about it right now. I know that I can bring all of my friends out there with me. What is so hard for me is knowing that I won't be able to sit up late with them and shoot the shit about game, or go over to B&N to hang out and bug Robert. I can keep all of you close and think about what you are all doing back in C'dale, but I won't be there with you. I know that it is for the best that I go. I have a few dreams of my own. I'll be on my own again for a while. Soul searching is that much more rewarding.
The wind picked up tonight and the sky cleared up a bit. I watched the moon and the stars like so many times before. Some times I had someone at my side, and those were good times. Some times I just had to watch by myself. There are so many things to do in this life. I want to realize my dreams, and I want to share them with everyone in the world. This really sounds corny, but I think everyone has to do something that leaves an impression upon the world.
Convincing yourself is sometimes the hardest part. You guys have supported me in my most difficult hours. I'm not leaving yet, so hopefully I can leave you with much more to remember me by. We'll hug and say safe trip. We'll see you soon, but it hurts to leave behind while I go to find what it is that pulls me away. What is it that I'm hoping to find? I'm hoping that I can make ends meet. I'm hoping that I can finally be successful in school. I'm hoping that I can make new friends and impact their lives for the better. I'm hoping that I can remain whole and not constantly wish for what's over the next hill. I'm hoping that I can settle into a life where I don't have to worry as much about money and bills and stupid bosses. Those things will, of course, always be there, but it steals a little piece of me every time I can't square up debts or have to ask for a bit of someone else's hot meal.
I don't understand yet what is pulling me to Colorado. My parents have begged me to live there with them. They are hoping that my brother and sister will decide to move there as well. I hope that I am moving there as much for me as for them. I wasn't exactly the easiest child for them to raise. They know I've been through some incredibly hard times.
Hopefully in all of this I can have the help I need to make it through the day. On my own is too hard to think about.
It's too hard to think about right now, so I'm off to bed.
LAter
I began some packing tonight for my 'new life' in Colorado. It's kind of hard to think about it right now. I know that I can bring all of my friends out there with me. What is so hard for me is knowing that I won't be able to sit up late with them and shoot the shit about game, or go over to B&N to hang out and bug Robert. I can keep all of you close and think about what you are all doing back in C'dale, but I won't be there with you. I know that it is for the best that I go. I have a few dreams of my own. I'll be on my own again for a while. Soul searching is that much more rewarding.
The wind picked up tonight and the sky cleared up a bit. I watched the moon and the stars like so many times before. Some times I had someone at my side, and those were good times. Some times I just had to watch by myself. There are so many things to do in this life. I want to realize my dreams, and I want to share them with everyone in the world. This really sounds corny, but I think everyone has to do something that leaves an impression upon the world.
Convincing yourself is sometimes the hardest part. You guys have supported me in my most difficult hours. I'm not leaving yet, so hopefully I can leave you with much more to remember me by. We'll hug and say safe trip. We'll see you soon, but it hurts to leave behind while I go to find what it is that pulls me away. What is it that I'm hoping to find? I'm hoping that I can make ends meet. I'm hoping that I can finally be successful in school. I'm hoping that I can make new friends and impact their lives for the better. I'm hoping that I can remain whole and not constantly wish for what's over the next hill. I'm hoping that I can settle into a life where I don't have to worry as much about money and bills and stupid bosses. Those things will, of course, always be there, but it steals a little piece of me every time I can't square up debts or have to ask for a bit of someone else's hot meal.
I don't understand yet what is pulling me to Colorado. My parents have begged me to live there with them. They are hoping that my brother and sister will decide to move there as well. I hope that I am moving there as much for me as for them. I wasn't exactly the easiest child for them to raise. They know I've been through some incredibly hard times.
Hopefully in all of this I can have the help I need to make it through the day. On my own is too hard to think about.
It's too hard to think about right now, so I'm off to bed.
LAter