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I feel as if I have the desire to hurt the only person who has ever continually cared about me. I am hurt beyond words, and I knew it was going to end up being this way. I am more mad at myself for getting caught up in everything, and I have feel the need never to associate myself with him again, which is exactly what he was trying to avoid...his main point was that he didn't 'want to hurt me and then end up losing me.' I am angry, and will probably end up doing something stupid and rash. I don't like being regarded as a 'moment of temporary insanity,' and I like even less to be crying over something I knew would eventually happen anyway.
ps. I am hurt, and this is my only way of getting it out, because you are the person I would normally go to with something like this, and you're why im hurting right now. please do not get mad at this, I still love you, i'm just very angry, and I need a way to express that so i don't explode.
ps. I am hurt, and this is my only way of getting it out, because you are the person I would normally go to with something like this, and you're why im hurting right now. please do not get mad at this, I still love you, i'm just very angry, and I need a way to express that so i don't explode.