i started lookin, and the bubble burst
someone needs to get me the new weezer and coldplay albums.
and either of these curtains from urbanoutfitters:
i'm starting The Move on wednesday. i've decided to dismantle my computer tomorrow. shelley wants to move her desk, and i don't need the interwebs distracting me from being productive. so if you need to reach me for anything, call me.
on the ride home tonight i had some sort of epiphany about relationships. about how sometimes i have to accept that although things Could Be, they aren't for a reason. it's not worth waiting around for something just because it has potential to be be Something. i can accept caring for someone even though there are many reasons to not be in a Relationship with them. it makes me a little sad, but i also kind of like a weight is lifted off my chest because i don't feel like i have to stress about it anymore. i know i'm not explaining myself very well.
i also realized that as much as i try to let water be under the bridge, i can't do it when circumstances are shoved in my face. i can't pretend to act like i'm not bothered by something when it's unavoidable. melody gave me a mini-lecture tonight about being the bigger person, and i stomped my feet and said "i'm tired of being the bigger person, i want to be the little person for once." it was only half true. if someone doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore, there's only so much i can do about it. and i'm tired of being upset about things like this! i'm tired of being stressed because i'm in a social situation where so and so won't say a word to me, or so and so isn't my friend on stupid myspace. if these people who choose for whatever reason to stop communicating with me want to explain, or make amends, they are more than welcome. but i'm tired of wasting my time reaching out to people only to have them ex-communicate me again. i don't have to be little, but i don't have to be big, either.
this moving thing is stressing me out. it's going to cost a lot of money in the beginning, and i've been making crap at work. i don't have a bed, or a desk. i don't have curtains! my gas light has been on for two days and i'm just anxious about the whole thing. maria left me a comment on myspace saying "remember, sometimes it's the destination, not the journey." and i was blown away because it's so true! i hadn't thought about it that way before. so while i'm going to try to remember that this week as i pack and move and my money drains away, i'm still kind of freaking out a little. ok more than a little.
oh god it's almost 4am. time to finish the last [see 'crappy'] half of lotr before i go to sleepytime. til i move in.... adios.
and either of these curtains from urbanoutfitters:
i'm starting The Move on wednesday. i've decided to dismantle my computer tomorrow. shelley wants to move her desk, and i don't need the interwebs distracting me from being productive. so if you need to reach me for anything, call me.
on the ride home tonight i had some sort of epiphany about relationships. about how sometimes i have to accept that although things Could Be, they aren't for a reason. it's not worth waiting around for something just because it has potential to be be Something. i can accept caring for someone even though there are many reasons to not be in a Relationship with them. it makes me a little sad, but i also kind of like a weight is lifted off my chest because i don't feel like i have to stress about it anymore. i know i'm not explaining myself very well.
i also realized that as much as i try to let water be under the bridge, i can't do it when circumstances are shoved in my face. i can't pretend to act like i'm not bothered by something when it's unavoidable. melody gave me a mini-lecture tonight about being the bigger person, and i stomped my feet and said "i'm tired of being the bigger person, i want to be the little person for once." it was only half true. if someone doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore, there's only so much i can do about it. and i'm tired of being upset about things like this! i'm tired of being stressed because i'm in a social situation where so and so won't say a word to me, or so and so isn't my friend on stupid myspace. if these people who choose for whatever reason to stop communicating with me want to explain, or make amends, they are more than welcome. but i'm tired of wasting my time reaching out to people only to have them ex-communicate me again. i don't have to be little, but i don't have to be big, either.
this moving thing is stressing me out. it's going to cost a lot of money in the beginning, and i've been making crap at work. i don't have a bed, or a desk. i don't have curtains! my gas light has been on for two days and i'm just anxious about the whole thing. maria left me a comment on myspace saying "remember, sometimes it's the destination, not the journey." and i was blown away because it's so true! i hadn't thought about it that way before. so while i'm going to try to remember that this week as i pack and move and my money drains away, i'm still kind of freaking out a little. ok more than a little.
oh god it's almost 4am. time to finish the last [see 'crappy'] half of lotr before i go to sleepytime. til i move in.... adios.