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i've been so incredibly lazy. that, and i've actually been busy. with things to do. go figure.
i have an assortment of pictures i want to post, but my camera is nowhere in sight, so until it decides to turn up...
i can already tell which way this summer is heading. i'm thinking that i will see a lot of my 'friends', and do things that i will probably forget i did in a month or so, but i will not see keenan. maybe once a week, and that's a huge improvement from last summer, which is so ridiculous i don't even need to elaborate. so, like oxygen, my body survives on late night phone conversations until the point where i am so tired i can't produce sound out of my mouth. whatever it takes, i guess. and after being with one amazing person for over 365 days, i'm willing to do whatever it is. i just want to spend hours on end with this one person, and forget any one else in the world exists. it's actually a nice feeling to have.
today was absolutely disgusting. i visited a house larger than three of mine put together, and with a basement the same size as the house. these people had a bar, dance floor, 'home theater' (projector, movie seats, the works) and pool and ping pong table. not to mention two annoying dogs who licked my legs and wouldn't stop barking. and their only daughter, whom excells in everything, has two jobs, plays sports and isn't allowed to date in order to not neglect her sports/family/friends. all of this, and the fact that i have no job, don't play sports, and am addicted to my boyfriend, was shoved in my face. way to make a 5 foot tall person feel 3 feet smaller.
i've been compulsively crying lately. i was in the car with my mom the other night, and i just started bawling. for no reason. then i felt sick to my stomach.
who would have thought pms could make anyone as emotional as i.
i have an assortment of pictures i want to post, but my camera is nowhere in sight, so until it decides to turn up...
i can already tell which way this summer is heading. i'm thinking that i will see a lot of my 'friends', and do things that i will probably forget i did in a month or so, but i will not see keenan. maybe once a week, and that's a huge improvement from last summer, which is so ridiculous i don't even need to elaborate. so, like oxygen, my body survives on late night phone conversations until the point where i am so tired i can't produce sound out of my mouth. whatever it takes, i guess. and after being with one amazing person for over 365 days, i'm willing to do whatever it is. i just want to spend hours on end with this one person, and forget any one else in the world exists. it's actually a nice feeling to have.
today was absolutely disgusting. i visited a house larger than three of mine put together, and with a basement the same size as the house. these people had a bar, dance floor, 'home theater' (projector, movie seats, the works) and pool and ping pong table. not to mention two annoying dogs who licked my legs and wouldn't stop barking. and their only daughter, whom excells in everything, has two jobs, plays sports and isn't allowed to date in order to not neglect her sports/family/friends. all of this, and the fact that i have no job, don't play sports, and am addicted to my boyfriend, was shoved in my face. way to make a 5 foot tall person feel 3 feet smaller.
i've been compulsively crying lately. i was in the car with my mom the other night, and i just started bawling. for no reason. then i felt sick to my stomach.
who would have thought pms could make anyone as emotional as i.