Now that you're here, I got somethin' to say baby..
Since you and your cuz read this, this is for y'all...
You know that I have not been happy in atleast a week? Why is this? What's changed? NY sure, thats not it..cause it's still here after our talk. It's something else. Maybe its the lack of time we've spent together...not sure but I just want to be happy. Yes, I'm still doubting our relationship. Because it's rocky. I still don't think I can live without you but I also can't live being mad or upset at you. I'm in a position where I don't know what's more important, happiness or you. I want both, like it was..I feel like I can't talk to you either b/c you just get upset or mad that I'm upset and preach about how I should act differently and I just take things way too serious. Well, honey that's who I am, and you know that by now, so stop using that against me. See if your cuz can help you with this one!
"It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out...
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn"
As for others, I love how friends are only there for you when they need you! The phone rings only when they want something or are high. It's great to be almost done with this school year so finally I don't have to see these faces again. I'm ready to get out, I'm ready to scream. Mr. Bourne, does anyone like you? No, so stop giving me a hard time, you perv. It's nonsense that he thinks we actually care about what we make on our exam, if he only knew that we ALL were asking about refunds because of PHYSICS!!!!! Teaching is something I'm not sure you're capable of...that's why maybe it is better you go to P-View. May 5, Calc exam, May 10, the wasted Physics exam. After that, I will not give a damn about school (much less than now). After Thursday, teachers can't say shit if we are missing. My exemption notice is already in. haha bitches..It's great having a computer class for three hours..O I'm working at Scientific Atlanta now. I make $9/hr to enter stuff in the computer, it's quite easy. I only work like 3 hrs a day too. Right after school...lol. I may also be getting another job, I'm going to turn in an application to Old Navy hopefully today. I got to go to the tanning bed and get my nail fixed today. I did half of my graduation announcements yesterday, took me 2 hours! But, Thursday is cap and gown and invitation day. Then Friday is YEARBOOK DAY!!!! Can't wait. I want to see everyone's senior page (especially mine). EVERYONE in my class room keeps playing "Burn"...hmph. The party ain't jumpin like it use to...
"Watchin’ you work the stick in the ride , the motion how you move from 3rd to 5
And imagine what it’s gon’ be when we get inside
And you put that ooh wee on me and you want me the same way, ooh I can’t wait
I’m tired of thinkin’ about it, speakin’ about it, baby it’s time to be about it, turn off the lights, take off your clothes, jump in the bed, and let it flow
Squeeze and holdin’ bitin’ scratchin’ spankin’ screamin’ pullin’ my hair when you need me everything goes…baby when you….
So long I waited for this night to get inside you look in your eyes and tell you baby take me I’m yours
And if you feel anything like I feel, by the end of the night I’m certain you’ll be screamin’ for more
I wanna do anything and everything to your body till you break down can’t take no more
From the bed to the floor, to the top of the stairs you gon’ get it baby please please…ooh DO IT TO ME…."
You know that I have not been happy in atleast a week? Why is this? What's changed? NY sure, thats not it..cause it's still here after our talk. It's something else. Maybe its the lack of time we've spent together...not sure but I just want to be happy. Yes, I'm still doubting our relationship. Because it's rocky. I still don't think I can live without you but I also can't live being mad or upset at you. I'm in a position where I don't know what's more important, happiness or you. I want both, like it was..I feel like I can't talk to you either b/c you just get upset or mad that I'm upset and preach about how I should act differently and I just take things way too serious. Well, honey that's who I am, and you know that by now, so stop using that against me. See if your cuz can help you with this one!
"It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out...
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn"
As for others, I love how friends are only there for you when they need you! The phone rings only when they want something or are high. It's great to be almost done with this school year so finally I don't have to see these faces again. I'm ready to get out, I'm ready to scream. Mr. Bourne, does anyone like you? No, so stop giving me a hard time, you perv. It's nonsense that he thinks we actually care about what we make on our exam, if he only knew that we ALL were asking about refunds because of PHYSICS!!!!! Teaching is something I'm not sure you're capable of...that's why maybe it is better you go to P-View. May 5, Calc exam, May 10, the wasted Physics exam. After that, I will not give a damn about school (much less than now). After Thursday, teachers can't say shit if we are missing. My exemption notice is already in. haha bitches..It's great having a computer class for three hours..O I'm working at Scientific Atlanta now. I make $9/hr to enter stuff in the computer, it's quite easy. I only work like 3 hrs a day too. Right after school...lol. I may also be getting another job, I'm going to turn in an application to Old Navy hopefully today. I got to go to the tanning bed and get my nail fixed today. I did half of my graduation announcements yesterday, took me 2 hours! But, Thursday is cap and gown and invitation day. Then Friday is YEARBOOK DAY!!!! Can't wait. I want to see everyone's senior page (especially mine). EVERYONE in my class room keeps playing "Burn"...hmph. The party ain't jumpin like it use to...
"Watchin’ you work the stick in the ride , the motion how you move from 3rd to 5
And imagine what it’s gon’ be when we get inside
And you put that ooh wee on me and you want me the same way, ooh I can’t wait
I’m tired of thinkin’ about it, speakin’ about it, baby it’s time to be about it, turn off the lights, take off your clothes, jump in the bed, and let it flow
Squeeze and holdin’ bitin’ scratchin’ spankin’ screamin’ pullin’ my hair when you need me everything goes…baby when you….
So long I waited for this night to get inside you look in your eyes and tell you baby take me I’m yours
And if you feel anything like I feel, by the end of the night I’m certain you’ll be screamin’ for more
I wanna do anything and everything to your body till you break down can’t take no more
From the bed to the floor, to the top of the stairs you gon’ get it baby please please…ooh DO IT TO ME…."