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[dizzielight]

im trying to not stress it, but how in the fuck am i suppose to not?? she doesnt want me to talk to tyler for some reason, she is protecting him from somthing i wouldnt do. he is going to kill me. she is going to kill me. things are going to change, i sware on my mothers life, things will change. im letting this build up in me and to talk to him might releve some, but if he wont talk to me then he will be looking threw a bloody window at school... as you can see i need to talk to him. not fight him. im going to snap if i dont talk to him and see her soon, i feel so broken when whe dont get along. love is the greatest thing in the world but jelousey is the worst thing to bring into a relationship, thats what im going to change. i will idmit it a am fuckin jellious, its not hard to see i just didnt want to accept it. it seems im in the wrong on every fucking thing i do. the one thing i know isnt a mistake is to love her and keep loving her, im going to be with her as long as i can, as long as she loves me.... all that i need i will never need more, and i need her. i dont think she would ever jeprodise what she has...

jimmy: the vermillion songs are getting to me again. help me!

i love you alyssa, your everything to me and im sorry about everything. i love you.

wes calhoun