Feb 18, 2003 18:03
Horoscope Today:
Even the most loving of partners is distant and inaccessible, take that into consideration all day long. Intimate relationships are a source of frustration; you're in no mood for mind games. A friend can help you see the amusing side of this situation. Let them restore your perspective before it gets out of hand. Getting involved with a humanitarian project allows you to take the focus off of your own problems for a few blissful hours. There's no better remedy for self-pity than doing a rare deed for people in need. Volunteering puts your troubles in context.
There was a homeless guy outside the mall today as I was driving to the bank. He was just sitting there looking sad and miserable, so I gave him $2.
It made me feel so good. The smile I put on his face was just awesome!
I'm feeling better, but still not 100%. It's just hard being stuck at home having to do things like study when the person I want to be with is out getting drunk and having a wonderful time without me.
He's met a lot of new friends and he's having a good time down there, which I'm happy about! I want him to be happy. But... he's having more fun down there then he ever did up here. :o( That makes me just the tiniest bit jealous. A part of me wants him to not have so much fun and to come back.
I just got to be patient, soon enough I'll be able to move to LA with him. Well, maybe not soon enough. The summer seems like a very long time away right now.
Even though Dave and I have talked about all this, it's still very hard to control my emotions, and I'm still sad he's gone.
But, I shouldn't be so sad. At least I don't have to be sitting beside a mall hoping someone will give me a few bucks so that I can eat tonite.