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[dixieder]

i dont like feeling sad all the time... i wish i was just happy with what i have and where i am... i dont want to leave home anymore. i want to stay here and fix up my moms house and have a horse or two and a garden and a dog and whatever else and i want to be near my family and i just want to be happy goddamn it. i just want to be happy.
everything always feels so fucked up