For Erin, Jose, Dano, David
lol, I was just looking at danO's yahoo album and became nostalgic at the same time as I was laughing at how funny we all looked. So much has changed! I mean, erin is getting married, jose has moved to mexico, dano is attached to curtis, I'm in Germany, David is doing his own thing with school/work/other friends. I hate this growing up thing. I never wanted how close our friendships were to change, i never wanted to be so far away from my friends--and not just in Germany, but even Eugene is too far, portland to gresham is TOO far! And, again, now Jose is in Mexico. Also, people work (yeah yeah...screw: "well that's part of growing up"; I don't want to grow up), and people have 'significant others', people do other things...
I had this idyllic picture in my head of all of us living on the same block on the same street somewhere in portland/gresham where we would never have to be far from each other. Of course that could still happen... but for the moment, I don't like the distance and the change--while, I guess, at the same time, I know that this distance thing gives us each room to grow, to be our own people, and that is good--I guess......
Looking at the pictures makes me miss erin's old house where we could all congregate, it makes me miss band where we were all part of the amazing marching program--I don't really know how to describe the way being a part of CHS marching band made me feel, but it was even better when I got to spend it with the people to whom I was/am closest. It makes me miss danO's old (old old) car and La Riss and Fluke and System of a Down.
I guess the direction all our lives have taken has made me realize how much I actually value the people I am away from. I know in high school there were times where we hated each other, where we just wanted to get away, to get out, to never have to deal with the drama or the crap that comes along with youth, but it was mostly good, like 95% good, right? That is a strong A. It's not like we aren't still good friends, close friends, well, maybe even a family, but it is different. It is mature different, and mature different sucks--sometimes! What happened to sleep overs, stanley kubrick marathons, staying up all night, going to pleasant valley middle school, truth or dare! (haha). Wouldn't it be fun to revisit some of the things we used to do because now they will be novel again, will be fun again, will bring us back to a place in our lives that now is, what, 3-4 years ago? Ew. Time sucks.
Of course, this is all nostalgia speaking, but I doubt any of you haven't felt this way at least a few times.
I had this idyllic picture in my head of all of us living on the same block on the same street somewhere in portland/gresham where we would never have to be far from each other. Of course that could still happen... but for the moment, I don't like the distance and the change--while, I guess, at the same time, I know that this distance thing gives us each room to grow, to be our own people, and that is good--I guess......
Looking at the pictures makes me miss erin's old house where we could all congregate, it makes me miss band where we were all part of the amazing marching program--I don't really know how to describe the way being a part of CHS marching band made me feel, but it was even better when I got to spend it with the people to whom I was/am closest. It makes me miss danO's old (old old) car and La Riss and Fluke and System of a Down.
I guess the direction all our lives have taken has made me realize how much I actually value the people I am away from. I know in high school there were times where we hated each other, where we just wanted to get away, to get out, to never have to deal with the drama or the crap that comes along with youth, but it was mostly good, like 95% good, right? That is a strong A. It's not like we aren't still good friends, close friends, well, maybe even a family, but it is different. It is mature different, and mature different sucks--sometimes! What happened to sleep overs, stanley kubrick marathons, staying up all night, going to pleasant valley middle school, truth or dare! (haha). Wouldn't it be fun to revisit some of the things we used to do because now they will be novel again, will be fun again, will bring us back to a place in our lives that now is, what, 3-4 years ago? Ew. Time sucks.
Of course, this is all nostalgia speaking, but I doubt any of you haven't felt this way at least a few times.