And After All You Woke Up In Time
I'm back in college. It blows, but I don't know what else to do. I'm 24. What else could I do? Since I've been back in college, I've fallen back into certain ruts. Like smoking a lot more than usual, drinking a lot more than I did, and letting my insomnia rule my life again. But, I stay awake in order to make it to the class. I'm lonely in Boone. And for the past three days it's rained non-stop. As I sit here and type on this laptop, drink this Stoli Tonic, and smoke these Camels, I think that this could be a problem. But, as long as I don't do what I used to and sit on a table in my room, drink a bottle of Jack Daniels, and play Tetris 64 I should be fine. I've gone to every class so far, even though it's only the third day of class. I know it's still early and all we've really done is go over the beginning bullshit of first days of class. It still blows, and I hate being in my tiny efficiency alone and tired and not being able to sleep in fear that I'll repeat what happened the last time I was in college. But, knowing that I have shit that needs to get done before my next class in 6 hours makes me stressed as fuck. It's a big load of shit what my mind is doing to myself. But, what else can I do? I just need to finish doing this, so I can get the fuck out and move on to be confused about what else I'm going to do. Fuck.