recent happenings
- I cleaned my house. Big time. Cleaned all surfaces, scrubbed the kitchen and bathroom, cleaned the windows, washed the sheets, picked up and tidied, organized the kitchen a little better, took all the keys off my imac keyboard and spent like an hour putting them back on. There is still so much to do, though. It's like the cleaner my apartment is, the cleaner I want it to be. It is really hard going from a total slob to something other than that.
-Sort of related to the above, I got rid of about 6 boxes of vintage clothing (and I still have more!). I had this idea for years that I wanted to sell vintage clothes-either through an etsy shop and/or a market and festival stalls. I have spent literally the last 7 years building up what I liked to call an inventory. This involved carrying suitcases filled with shit over from the States or England. About a week ago, I was looking at all of it and I thought to myself that if I haven't done anything about it by now, then I'm probably not ever going to. I'd still love to do that sometime, but the idea that I would have carted all that crap from America just to cart it back there in the most likely not so distant future was way to depressing to even think about. So away it went. And I feel lighter and okay with it. I hope someone enjoys something from my stash.
- I made the most insanely delicious raw red thai curry nori bites. They are like red thai curry flax crackers spread on to nori paper and then dehydrated. As soon as I get some batteries for my camera, I am going to take some pics and post the recipe. I want to make green thai curry ones soon, and I already have ideas for how to improve the recipe so that the next batch will be even more super duper awesome.
- I finally got around to watching Crazy Sexy Cancer, like what 5 years too late! haha, oh well. I loved it and it was really super inspirational but it made me feel like a shit human being. I mean, I don't have any major health challenge to deal with and I still can't enjoy my fucking life. I feel like I shuffle through my life like a zombie most of the time AND I WANT TO FUCKING LIVE!!!! Which brings me to my next point:
- I feel like a matronly crone. Seriously. I'm not even 30 yet and I feel really really old. This has to do with a few things. For example, my grey hair. I mean, I henna-ed the crap out of that mother the other week and it looks cute, but I have grey pubes. Yeah, like 7 of them. And I found a grey eyebrow hair the other day. It's not just that, though. I feel invisible. I feel like I haven't yet created a defined style and that I am just in general, a hot mess.
- I really want a new tattoo. I already know what I want as I have had the idea rolling around in my head for years now and I *KNOW* that this is what I want next. I want two magnolia blossoms, one on each clavicle/shoulder. For my 30th birthday in December, I will have my tattoos!!!!
- I decided to exercise TWO TIMES a week, and I have done that for two weeks now. I really hope that consistently achieving realistic goals like that will help me be able to follow through with it. I really don't want to go another period of like 6 months without doing any physical activity. I really don't want to be that person anymore.
Things like this give me the strength to carry on when it feels like too much to bear:
-Sort of related to the above, I got rid of about 6 boxes of vintage clothing (and I still have more!). I had this idea for years that I wanted to sell vintage clothes-either through an etsy shop and/or a market and festival stalls. I have spent literally the last 7 years building up what I liked to call an inventory. This involved carrying suitcases filled with shit over from the States or England. About a week ago, I was looking at all of it and I thought to myself that if I haven't done anything about it by now, then I'm probably not ever going to. I'd still love to do that sometime, but the idea that I would have carted all that crap from America just to cart it back there in the most likely not so distant future was way to depressing to even think about. So away it went. And I feel lighter and okay with it. I hope someone enjoys something from my stash.
- I made the most insanely delicious raw red thai curry nori bites. They are like red thai curry flax crackers spread on to nori paper and then dehydrated. As soon as I get some batteries for my camera, I am going to take some pics and post the recipe. I want to make green thai curry ones soon, and I already have ideas for how to improve the recipe so that the next batch will be even more super duper awesome.
- I finally got around to watching Crazy Sexy Cancer, like what 5 years too late! haha, oh well. I loved it and it was really super inspirational but it made me feel like a shit human being. I mean, I don't have any major health challenge to deal with and I still can't enjoy my fucking life. I feel like I shuffle through my life like a zombie most of the time AND I WANT TO FUCKING LIVE!!!! Which brings me to my next point:
- I feel like a matronly crone. Seriously. I'm not even 30 yet and I feel really really old. This has to do with a few things. For example, my grey hair. I mean, I henna-ed the crap out of that mother the other week and it looks cute, but I have grey pubes. Yeah, like 7 of them. And I found a grey eyebrow hair the other day. It's not just that, though. I feel invisible. I feel like I haven't yet created a defined style and that I am just in general, a hot mess.
- I really want a new tattoo. I already know what I want as I have had the idea rolling around in my head for years now and I *KNOW* that this is what I want next. I want two magnolia blossoms, one on each clavicle/shoulder. For my 30th birthday in December, I will have my tattoos!!!!
- I decided to exercise TWO TIMES a week, and I have done that for two weeks now. I really hope that consistently achieving realistic goals like that will help me be able to follow through with it. I really don't want to go another period of like 6 months without doing any physical activity. I really don't want to be that person anymore.
Things like this give me the strength to carry on when it feels like too much to bear: