the last few days
I´ve been ok-ish I guess. Husband and I have stopped fighting. Well, I stopped fighting is more like it. I wish I wasn't so crazy sometimes. I wish I could just be happy with what I have. My life is not bad at all.
I feel like I should make a list of things that doesn't suck about my life.
1. I am living abroad and have had the opportunity to visit a few countries since I have lived away. It is NOT easy by any stretch of the imagination but I have been able to do it. That is pretty awesome.
2. I have the most beautiful, amazing dogs that anyone could imagine. Both of them have incredibly vivid and strong personalities and they taught me what love is. They have been with me through the process of becoming an adult and have witnessed so much change, upheaval, bullshit, craziness and have loved me unconditionally through it. My dogs are fucking soldiers!
3. My Spanish has come a looong way. I may not speak perfectly, but I can speak! I can relate to people, read books, watch movies, handle the most complicated situations, make friends, have deep conversations, and generally understand the world around me in another language. So many people can't. And I still have at least the next year to keep going and learning.
4. My talents. I can crochet and make some pretty amazing stuff. I have an eye for color and pattern (even if some people think my style is garish and tacky sometimes!) I am great with food, especially vegan food and raw food. I make bomb ass raw chocolates and raw cakes. I can recognize a lot of plants in my environment, the majority being food and medicinal plants and I make tinctures, infusions and other products with it.
Considering that up until the age of like 26, I truly thought I had no talent and was good at nothing, that is pretty amazing.
5. At the moment, I am not working. Even though I am not getting paid, I would so rather have the next month off than have to be teaching English right now. Even though it's not the worst job that I have had, it is really hard on me emotionally- mainly due to teaching kids and teenagers. So I need the break.
6. I have a month paid for at City Yoga. I can go whenever I want for the rest of August. I gotta take advantage of that. Only downside is that it is Iyengar, which is not my favorite style of yoga but is still good to have that base of proper alignment.
7. The fact that I have air conditioning this summer. It is luscious to be able to feel the cool breeze on my skin at night. We normally don't put it on during the day. Just at night. I appreciate and adore this totally resource wasteful luxury right now. Not having it for the previous three years made me aware of all this.
8. Dan going to pick up beers just now. I know it isn't optimal for my health to drink alcohol and do play around with not drinking it ever again. Dan is getting into medicinal/sacred indigenous brews at the moment so we will see how that plays out. I just don't want to have to spit in it to make it ferment!
I feel like I should make a list of things that doesn't suck about my life.
1. I am living abroad and have had the opportunity to visit a few countries since I have lived away. It is NOT easy by any stretch of the imagination but I have been able to do it. That is pretty awesome.
2. I have the most beautiful, amazing dogs that anyone could imagine. Both of them have incredibly vivid and strong personalities and they taught me what love is. They have been with me through the process of becoming an adult and have witnessed so much change, upheaval, bullshit, craziness and have loved me unconditionally through it. My dogs are fucking soldiers!
3. My Spanish has come a looong way. I may not speak perfectly, but I can speak! I can relate to people, read books, watch movies, handle the most complicated situations, make friends, have deep conversations, and generally understand the world around me in another language. So many people can't. And I still have at least the next year to keep going and learning.
4. My talents. I can crochet and make some pretty amazing stuff. I have an eye for color and pattern (even if some people think my style is garish and tacky sometimes!) I am great with food, especially vegan food and raw food. I make bomb ass raw chocolates and raw cakes. I can recognize a lot of plants in my environment, the majority being food and medicinal plants and I make tinctures, infusions and other products with it.
Considering that up until the age of like 26, I truly thought I had no talent and was good at nothing, that is pretty amazing.
5. At the moment, I am not working. Even though I am not getting paid, I would so rather have the next month off than have to be teaching English right now. Even though it's not the worst job that I have had, it is really hard on me emotionally- mainly due to teaching kids and teenagers. So I need the break.
6. I have a month paid for at City Yoga. I can go whenever I want for the rest of August. I gotta take advantage of that. Only downside is that it is Iyengar, which is not my favorite style of yoga but is still good to have that base of proper alignment.
7. The fact that I have air conditioning this summer. It is luscious to be able to feel the cool breeze on my skin at night. We normally don't put it on during the day. Just at night. I appreciate and adore this totally resource wasteful luxury right now. Not having it for the previous three years made me aware of all this.
8. Dan going to pick up beers just now. I know it isn't optimal for my health to drink alcohol and do play around with not drinking it ever again. Dan is getting into medicinal/sacred indigenous brews at the moment so we will see how that plays out. I just don't want to have to spit in it to make it ferment!