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LUCIFER 4
It had begun. Across the cities and the deserts of Earth, across the realms of light and the realms of pain, the gates were scattered. Welded open by God's own name. All who sought them found them now, as iron filings find a lodestone. As with the silver city, this was a land whose frontiers were undefeated. In ones, in twos, afraid and unafraid, with or without backward glances, they passed through -- -- and were gone.
- "Don't bring the habit of worship here with you. Graven images, anthropomorphized abstractions, cosmic principles, they're all equally unacceptable."
The Lilim declares war on Lucifer. And Mazikeen goes to talk to him and Lucifer says that he would let her come but not them because they will squabble like dogs.
ANYWAY. THE BASANOS AND SUSAN-O-NO-MIKOTO's timing strikes him down :'D . . . and they fuck over his world and make people pray to them :(
The Lilim ride into Lucifer's creation for conquest! Alas, the basanos inform them he has already fallen to them.
Meleos: "[Lucifer] is made of will, as your father Michael is made of power." Meleos is a seraphim, also he says that Michael is sterile.
Meleo: When God made the world the first thing he created was the host of heaven, beginning with your father Michael and Lucifer. For everything else that was made, they were his intermediaries. Michael's demiurgic power gave birth to the first matter. And Lucifer's will shaped it into suns.
Lucifer to Death: You... have... ... no claim on me.
D: Never said I did. But the big wheels are turning, obviously. Everyone needs to know what happens next.
L: What happens next... is that... I reinstate myself. And then I destroy the basanos. ( which... has him fried :'D ) Or perhaps...
D: -- You don't, right. It's like the end of the movie -- the Italian Job -- where the bus is halfway off the cliff? I mean, you're so close to the edge that even trying to pull yourself back will send you over. Tough call. Really.
L: Then I'll wait. Until another option comes along.
D: It's been a long, long time. Hasn't it? Since you started th eball rolling, I mean.
L: The ball?
D: The universe. The big bang. The first big bang. Not the encore.
L: NOne of this was my choosing.
D: No? That's not the way I see it. You and Michael were his first big ideas. You cam out pretty much undiluted. "Here," He says. "I want a universe. Run one up for me." It's no surprise you turned out the way you did. I guess He'd have gotten bored with following orders, too.
L: I have nothing in common with Yahweh. And this isn't a topic I'm interested in pursuing.
Meleos: I considered more dramatic gestures. But I needed you alive. And this is revenge enough.
Lucifer: Restoring me to health?
M: Puncturing that cocoon of self-sufficiency. Making your life contingent on mine.
Lucifer >:/
After dying, all of his power is in the two feathers, which Susano-o took
The Primum Mobile
The Throne of Light
Not the voice of God, now, but the presence.
Michael is not happy with God :( and when God said Lucifer had to be kerdestroyed a blasphemy had been born in his heart and now Michael is even sadder :(
Lucifer accepts the Lilim into his world and Mazikeen reswears fealty to him and such.
.. Michael has been cast out >:
LUCIFER 5
HE WAS STABBED AND BLED :O is at Rudd's cos la la la there will be a DUEL WITH AMENADIEL
Rudd wants to know if Lucifer was the architect of Hell and Lucifer replies "It accreted around me. Certainly I did nothing to stop it." And Lucifer is like YOUR PLANS TO TOPPLE HELL ARE FINE BY ME I don't even live here, geez. Uhh and he says that if there was no Hell then God would just make something else lololol. And then "We might even talk strategies at some point. If nothing else, we can give each other the luxury of a new perspective."
Lord Arux and Remiel send assassins LOL ASSASSINS LOL Mazikeen goes after the feathers, but is captured by her exhusband. And Lucifer's soul is infected with a crazy cherubim.
REMIEL IS LIKE D< AND Duma is like :| and then Duma takes Lucifer to the Painfields because he needs to go there. And then shows up barely on time for the duel! With blood on his shirt >: And the crowd is disssmaaayyyed.
And Amenadiel hunts down Lucifer! And then EATS HIS HEART but lo it is not Lucifer's heart but the assassin's heart with the cherub in it :'D And Lucifer's heart was in the box Amenadiel used to hunt him down and Remiel is like whine whine bitch hey! IT IS A MATTER OF THE CODE, MORNINGSTAR. YOU UNDERSTAND THE IMPORTANCE OF OBEDIENCE. ... but Mazikeen has good timing and the feathers are destroyed and Lucifer is restored :'D And Remiel is like POUT >:( fine I guess we'll take Arux!!1
Solomon Douid GOD HAS TOLD HIM HIS DUTY!!1 HE CAN SEE GHOSTS. AND HE ISSSS JUSSTTIIICCCEEE ( HE SOLOMON, SON OF DAVID! ) ( he is like 4 thousand years old.... )
Lucifer goes to visit Loki :'D He wants to talk to Loki alone and the wife is like nooo the venommm so Lucifer torches the snake :'D
"The all-father is going to be hugely pissed off about his snake, Lightbringer."
"Probably. If I were you, I'd keep screaming from time to time. He may never notice the difference."
ANYWAY HE GOES TO GET A SHIP FROM BERGELMIR
The fallen cherubs are like "uhhhh why are we letting him beat the shit out of meleos" and Michael is like "Because Solomon believes he serves my Father, the Lord of Hosts. His pursuit of Justice is an offering -- a prayer. I would not wish to belittle it." blah blah GOD KICKED YOU OUT. "No. But I deserved my punishment, Gaudium. Grotesquely enough, what hopes I have of redemption now lie in my brother's hands."
Bergelmir tries to trick Lucifer into killing the first thing he sees with an axe but no Lucifer outwits him :')
LUCIFER 6
They are taking the Naglfar to the Mansions of Silence
...annnnnd Lucifer roasts a ton of giants.
Michael: Brother -- -- your taste for irony is becoming both obvious and oppressive.
Lucifer: Irony? Oh, you mean angels and harps? Amusing, I really hadn't thought of it.
M: Then why invite me here? Is there news?
L: Not yet. But I wanted you to see something. Christian Haarnack made this in 1785. Then, just before the allies took Berlin in 1945, a shell exploded against the south wall and made this crack in the casing, here. I always think of you when I think of harps. They make a sweet sound while their own internal stresses tear them apart in slow motion. Just a crack, a tenth of an inch long and fifty years later -- -- here we are. ( it breaks ).
M: So you'd have me draw some sort of lesson from the destruction of beauty.
L: Don't be ridiculous. But suppose the harp is a bridge -- -- and the tracks in the central support, a meter below the surface where it can't be seen? What then?
M: Are you trying to tempt me, Lucifer? Our father has a plan, and both death and life are part of it. Why should I intervene to prevent His purpose?
L: But you did intervene. When you sent Gaudium to save your daughter.
M: That was different. She was not part of the patrimony of Adam. She is a unique case.
L: She is you with a womb. Unique doesn't even begin to describe what Elaine is. Watch the bridge fall down and then tell me where you stand.
Lucifer wants to know where Michael stands. Michael says, where he always has. Lucifer smacks him :'D And talks about how the Plan seems fake and they have never seen it etc and Michael is still like I HAVE FAITH.
"You never change, do you, Michael? Always thirsty for knowledge -- always afraid that someone's spat in the cup."
"These are the thoughts of Yahweh, my father. The artificer Scoria drilled into his mind with alchemical engines, and stored the runoff here."
L: Coming in? Or do you have to be home before midnight?
M: Because I retain a sense of duty to something beyond myself. you think of me as a fool. There are no grounds on which we can ever meet, Lucifer. So we must be content to pity each other from a distance.
[ Ah, the pity of it. Do not think I am unmoved, my sons. I have lived these lives again and again. I have endured these futile quests and escalating sacrifices. The turmoil that drowns out love and hope and meaning -- -- until the heart stops, and the last breath dies in the last dry throat. It is a tragedy. All of it. But the patterns persist, too ... ...persist and repeat themselves. Infinity answers infinity. Like mirrors facing each other across a narrow hallway. I have made well. And I made best when I made you. Now come into the light -- -- where I can see you both. ]
[ Michael Demiurgos -- spark that expands forever -- ocean of power with no shore -- -- and Samael -- my sweet, savage, Samael, who brings the Light where I have told it to shine -- -- How I love you, my sons. How I swell with pride for you. ] ... [ For you are the King of contrivance and manipulation, my Samael, but in that, as in all things -- -- you learned from your father. ]
[ First of all, my sons, you should know this. That I did not need you. The first flower of light could have been born without a seed. I had played it through a thousand times. I knew its growth and decay to a nicety. And there was no need for a weaver to spin the light into suns. It was pregnant already with the forms which it would become. But I had to teach you your skills. And there was no mother school. Then came the Host, and the Silver City. And if they were needed, it was only because I had created you. How would you look upon yourselves if you had no peers? No context for your actions? No mirrors into which to gaze? And how could you head -- or head off -- -- a rebellion if there were none to follow your banners? There is a reason for everything I do. I abhor waste. Yes, Michael. The rebellion was the point. But you were so slow to anger -- -- so reluctant even to question that I almost despaired. While Samael squandered eternity trying to escape from the plan, which of course foresaw everything he did. Until now. ]
M - all my life I have obeyed him. And for that I have his pity? I must be tormented and harried into following Lucifer's example?
... the weird lantern garden of dead souls is ... Tsukiyomi's.
Lucifer destroys it and kills all the things there just by being there lolol.
"Very well. You are the tutelary spirits of this world. Though none will name or bless you, even in their thoughts. Mona Doyle, I set you over hedgehogs. Elaine Belloc, I set you over everything except hedgehogs."
LUCIFER 7
LOL GOD LEFT GUYS :'D God's plan was to leave after he chose a successor.
- "That would be both of us. Myself and my noble brother. You see, each of us supplies something that the other lacks."
/ that's absurd /
- "It's also irrelevant. Neither of us wants the job. But others will. Yahweh is -- was -- the determinant of this reality. This creation. Now that he's gone every god, demon and tooth fairy will want to step into his shoes. Unless you preempt them."
- "Did you know Effrul? I left his bones here after I killed him. And the local gentry turned his skull into a boundary marker. What I killed, I can bring back. That's also a matter of will."
Michael is sulking. Some Titans ( Gyges Kprogenitos and his brother ) have claimed Godright. Except Lucifer waltzes up and is like lol Michael still sulking? THIS PRIMUM MOBILE IS NOW MINE :'D so he is god of the other creation and this one.
- "Your willingness to grovel is what defines you. Your subordination of yourselves to another's will."
"Arrogance too. Is this convergence or chiasmus, Michael? Will we become twins, or pass each other going in opposite directions? Either way, I find your faith -- as I find most faith -- -- grotesquely misplaced."
After that he wants his creation clean of immortals and has Elaine do it.
LUCIFER 8
He would prefer reality to endure.
( LUCIFER 50 )
YOUNGSAMAEL :'D he wants to know why Lilith soils herself with demons >: She was made for Adam!
People not God think that Lilith has to die because she cannot contain her lust. Ibriel shags her. . .
- "I have considered -- -- killing my father."
Assuming that was possible, what would it achieve?
- "It would set me free. I would stand alone, then."
I think it would destroy you. You'd have him hanging over your shoulder forever, then. You'd never know what you might have been without his influence.
- "Aye. Well. There's the rub. His influence extends through everything. There's nowhere I can go where I won't meet him."
There's your own spirit, I suppose. Or your own will -- Whatever it is that makes you hate him.
( Lilith and Samael. )
Ibriel wants to build, but the host does not build, they only maintain.
Samael wonders why god hasn't killed him since he knows He knows what he is thinking.
Lilith: To Samael, whose passion burned like the sun, I gave pleasures abstract and intellectual. Ibriel saw himself as all spirit. All cold reason and lofty imagining. But there was a corner in him warmed by the lust of the body -- -- and there I pitched by tent. My womb is like a garden, where everything that is planted comes to fruit. I knew what could come of this -- -- but then the lust of the body is my joy and sustenance.
Ibriel freaks because Lilith bears him a son :') Briadach.
Lilith says the angels are most comely -- and most cruel.
The Lilim forged the silver city. Were the workforce for it. Ibriel is like I THOUGHT IN THE SPIRIT OF TOLERANCE and Gabriel is like lol no. Mazikeen and Briadach trick Ibriel and kill him. Gabriel is like THEY MUST DIIIEEE Michael and some are like >: but they are only children. Samael does not comment. Michael is patient, Samael does not want to wait for their father's word or anything else -- to worship in silence and patience does not suit him.
Lucifer intercedes on behalf of Mazikeen and Briadach ( well. Sort of ). Gabriel is like YOU JUST WANT TO DEFY ME >: "I care for truth. My own truth."
"Angels of the host! I renounce my name and my birthright. I am Samael no longer. Now I am only what I was made to be -- the Lucifer. The bearer of the light and the fire. And those of you who seek their own paths -- -- may, if you care to, begin by following mine. "
/Friend looked at friend, then. And comrade considered comrade. A silence fell across the plaza, sudden and heavy. As he walked towards the gate, they began to fall in behind him. He didn't look back. He didn't seem to care./
Charles Gilmour killed his wife and baby. he's crazy.
THIS IS WHEN FENRIS AND THEM SHOW UP O GOD. I HATE THIS PART ;; I CAN LIKE NEVER FIND IT. Anyway, Fenris goes to get names of who ate at his table from Bergelmir. Jill is told she only aborted half of twins instead of the whole Basanos child and Michael goes to see Destiny. FAMILY REUNION TIME :'D Lucifer and Elaine and Michael.
Bet Jo'gie beguiles Idun ( god of youth ) and fenrir kills him.
- "Destiny, how would you feel about a small wager? Before this meal is over, I'll do something that isn't written in your book."
All things are written there. The wager would be meaningless.
- "But just for the Hell of it -- so to speak."
Since all things are predetermined, I do not gamble.
- "Then gamble that they're not and you can't lose."
LUCIFER HAET DESTINY :'D and he burns the Book. RAWWRRR. Except in the ashes is written "Fenris Yggdrasil" and Destiny says "And now you change your mind."
Michael pushed his power out into the world to help hold it together.
Fenris fed his enemies himself to keep himself safe "until I came to take it back." And he needed Gilmour as a chariot.
HA HA HA. LUCIFER WAS PREPARED TO WATCH YAHWEH'S CREATION FALL but siiiiiiiiigh what Fenris does might fuck with his too. The Yggdrasil is a focal point. You can only get there by losing yourself, so.
Lucifer, Elaine and Michael go to the Yggdrasil, but it leaves Elaine blind and them tired. Fenris infects Lucifer and he tries to kill Michael and Michael will explode again and yes.
LUCIFER 9
In Lucifer 55 Remiel makes a poopyface and Duma hands the key over to Rudd.
LILITH HAD MET WITH SOME JIN EN MOK and the silk man and sandalphon and they planned and plotted. This was in the past, but they can see the future, where Michael is on the yggdrasil roots and "dying". They ride the barrowjane in and out of time ( well, really, not in time at all, but you know !)
THE YAHWEH DANCE. Elaine makes her own Creation.
... Lilith and Sandalphon's children. Jill goes to make birth. Berim hunts Mazikeen. Noema is born, Lucifer and Elaine show up there.
LUCIFER 10
Solomon is still running around doing justice.
Noema haet Lucifer.
Lilith brings down the silver city
"This is Hell, everyone knows him."
Mazikeen brings news of the attack on the Silver City. Lucifer wants Rudd to fight for Heaven because the Primum Mobile must stay intact.
( Lucifer is carving a mask :3 Elaine says it is beautiful. )
Elaine: I thought I knew all his moods by this time. All his seasons. But I was wrong. I'd never seen him wait.
" 'The host do not build. They only maintain what has been built.' My brother, Gabriel. One of the longest speeches I ever heard him make."
- "Since this has turned into the final conflict between something and nothing, I'm siding with something. But only so far as it suits me. I won't let myself be imprisoned in a situation I didn't choose."
So is that my part? To be imprisoned?
- "Assuming we survive at all, yes. But the longer Rudd delays the more academic the whole issue becomes. We may lose without even fighting. That would be a new experience for me."
FENRIS IS DESTRUCTION...... and allied with the Lilim.
Rudd brings his army to the silver city and they fight the lilim and the host and win. Lucifer wounded but they drop by his creation for a healing before they head back to make Elaine sit on the throne. Rudd fights Fenris but Fenris breaks through and explodes the Primum Mobile ( as a lightning bolt ).
The throne of god denies Fenris existence and Mazikeen, Lucifer and Duma press him to try and keep him immaterial. But Noema wants Lucifer to die so she pushes fate and stabs him in the back.
Lucifer pulls the knife from his back to fight with. Noema says "His will is infinite. And it's hard to feed infinity into an equation."
God Brings Lilith and Elaine to discuss the fate of the creation. He expected one of his sons to stand where Elaine is -- probably Michael and he expected Fenris where Lilith is.
Fenris: Morningstar, I have so many reasons to love you. For eons I've dined richly -- glutted myself full -- on the crumbs you let fall from your table. When you taught pride and hatred to the angels. When you divided Heaven against itself. When you unmade the mansions of silence with your footfalls.
Lucifer popped Fenris's head :)
Elaine refuses to argue for lives, saying it isn't right. God is like :J derp well it would be from the beginning of time so it is okay! And then Lucifer sends a bloody dagger
Yahweh says, "Ah. Yes. Yes, I see. Here are the fruits of randomness, the harvest of uncertainty. He's right, of course. There is another way. And the pain can be justified, Elaine -- -- if only by reference to the greater good."
Yahweh: Tell them.
Noema: Me? But you said you'd allow no other voices.
Y: All rules may be broke at least once. Ask my son, Lucifer.
N: In ancient Phrygia, in a temple in Telmissus, there was a great wonder. The reins of a cart, twisted by the dead king Gordius, into a knot that nobody could untie. The reins were made of cornel bark, which had shrunk and compacted over the years. And they were tied in what's called a turkish knot, with no visible ends. Hundreds of men had tried and failed to loosen it. ... ( So Alexander cut it ) Contemporary sources, by the way, are mostly silent on this. Only Aristoboulos even mentions it -- and he was Alexander's greatest propagandist.
Yahweh gives creation to Elaine and rekills Lilith ( who died already anyway ).
Elaine is like :| you knew what I'd have to do, I should thank you for not telling me sooner. And she is going to rebind creations with her name over Yahweh's. ( "They obey me because Duma does -- and because, in the end, obedience is what angels are best at. All but one of them, anyway." )
Lucifer backs air for a moment or two. Fixes me with that stare of his. Saying nothing. Weighing everything.
L - Be sure that this is what you want. There's no turning back from it.
E - There never has been. Not from that moment when you pulled me out of someone else's death. What I want -- doesn't matter now.
L - It always matters. Even for suicides. Pace yourself.
His wings flash once, and he's off into unreachable distance. It doesn't come so naturally to me.
Duma and Mazikeen are completely spent, even Lucifer seems drained. But I am filled with a terrible energy.
E- Lucifer --
A terrible purpose.
E - What's happening to me?
L - Apotheosis. Godhead. My advice? Try wrath. Try mercy. Try to find yourself somewhere in between.
Elaine in her wrath pursues Noema and changes her into a normal child. In her mercy she brings Solomon and Meleos to Christopher Rudd to absolve him of his sins.
Elaine is your new God :'D. Lucifer's creation and Yahwehs were both dropped into hers and it's mended.
Lucifer: Someone has to be the founder. The preserver. The arbiter. And I was damned if it was going to be me. For what it's worth, I think you'll be an improvement on the old regime.
LUCIFER 11
Tying up loose ends. Lucifer gives the Lux to Rachel and says she should give it to the person who comes asking for it.
He goes and burns Meleos's eyes and says that by the time they grow back Elaine will have learned the ropes.
M - You reap what you sow, Lucifer! You always have! You're surrounded by horror and chaos because you birth horror and chaos!
L - That's a point of view, certainly. I'll give it some thought.
...annndddd Lucifer bangs Izanami. And leaves her.
And Lucifer goes to see Mazikeen.
L - When I walk away from here, everything else will fall from me like sloughed skin. You -- I'll have to work to forget. And this gift -- although it may not be what you most wanted -- -- will still be our marriage. Our union.
...
L - Your face is not the gift. I only wanted to see you again -- -- as beautiful as you were when you first came to me.
And he gives Mazikeen his name, his nature, the light that his father lit.
She marks his face.
"Gabriel, my way may be a dead end, or it may lead up into the light. Either way, I choose it for myself."
In the fight God descends and offers Lucifer a realm of his own to rule over. And he gives him Hell and Lucifer accepts it. Since it is the furthest from God's throne. His rule is not contingent on others' suffering. Mazikeen comes to him and he says he will never thank her for her service, and to keep the face because it suits her.
Reseeing his past usettles -- even angers him -- His calm, which he values highly, is threatened by it.
Lucifer ends up on the barrowjane and sees Lilith and them plotters and then God shows up and is like GLAD TO SEE YOU OUT HERE, SON.
L - Inside or outside, our relationship remains the same. You made me. That doesn't get any easier to bear.
Y - Can we set that grievance aside for a while and speak of other things?
L - My honest opinion? No. We can't.
...
L - But perhaps we can pretend to speak of other things.
Y - Excellent! An admirable compromise!
Y - You've been unhappy because you've desire things that cannot be.
L - That's what desire is. The need for what we can't have. The need for what's readily available is called greed. And futile or not, my struggle against you has shaped me into what I am. Do you expect me to apologize for it?
Y - By no means.
they stopped pretending rather quick :') And Lucifer gets up to leave and God is like HEY WE COULD SWAP SELVESISH. EACH OF US WOULD BE THE HOT METAL TO THE OTHER'S MOLD AS WE FLOW TOGETHER INTO OUR FINAL SHAPES :'D
Lucifer says no and flies into oblivion :'D