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With the breakthrough of total and complete burn out, came the need to reassess, prioritize, and reconnect. It wasn't until I was having lunch with Teddy that I realized a large part of my burnout was a disconnect from people. I see people. I work with people. I go to events. I am at least lurking on facebook, if not active. But that's not what I'm lacking. I was lacking connection, not just socialization. Don't misunderstand, I connect on a daily basis with Dinosaur. He's amazing. But at my heart, I'm a bit of an extrovert. I need connection.
The other side of this, is that there is a large percentage of people who are going home next month. I've known that I wouldn't be going home this year, and I've accepted that. The issue is that at least half of my friends time and thoughts are about home, so there is a disconnect there. I get little twinges when my regular facebook feed starts filling up with prep and talk of home.
So, because schedules worked the way they did, and because I was feeling the need for meaningful human interaction, I've gotten some. Wednesday when Dinosaur went for coffee, I went to go see London Rocker, his always charming wife Master Seamstress, and their new little squirmy guy. It was great to get out, reconnect with them, and get my mind off other things that has been swarming in my head.
And yesterday I was pleasantly surprised by my visit with another friend, who is doing much better than I had anticipated, and I surprisingly enjoyed myself more than I thought I would. I had been feeling a strong disconnect there, and we didn't so much connect, but I didn't feel such an overwhelming need to pull away like I have been.
I have a dinner lined up and drinks with a friend for next week, and that's before Plunderfest. Maybe I can get back into sewing, gaming, and continue being active while still getting enough done in the two houses that I don't feel like a complete slacker.
The other side of this, is that there is a large percentage of people who are going home next month. I've known that I wouldn't be going home this year, and I've accepted that. The issue is that at least half of my friends time and thoughts are about home, so there is a disconnect there. I get little twinges when my regular facebook feed starts filling up with prep and talk of home.
So, because schedules worked the way they did, and because I was feeling the need for meaningful human interaction, I've gotten some. Wednesday when Dinosaur went for coffee, I went to go see London Rocker, his always charming wife Master Seamstress, and their new little squirmy guy. It was great to get out, reconnect with them, and get my mind off other things that has been swarming in my head.
And yesterday I was pleasantly surprised by my visit with another friend, who is doing much better than I had anticipated, and I surprisingly enjoyed myself more than I thought I would. I had been feeling a strong disconnect there, and we didn't so much connect, but I didn't feel such an overwhelming need to pull away like I have been.
I have a dinner lined up and drinks with a friend for next week, and that's before Plunderfest. Maybe I can get back into sewing, gaming, and continue being active while still getting enough done in the two houses that I don't feel like a complete slacker.