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i feel sick. not sick like with a cold or the flu, but sick in my soul. just unwell. i hate it. it makes me feel so terrible. i wish there was something anything i could take for this to go away. there is so much i want to say, want to do, but i just cant. i cant bring myself to do it or say it. and thats so unlike the real me... i am usually the first one to say how i feel to tell it like it is... but right now, i cant do it. you make me so nervous, so choked up... i just hold it all in and feel sick. sick deep inside.