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well good god dizamn melodramatic works less then livejournal i swear!
the last few days have been so fucked.... everything at work has gone completely mad.... this girl sarah i work with completely flipped out on me on saturday.... and none the less she told my manager that i was doing no work... excuse me bitch... i cleaned out the back fridge yesterday, the front one today.... and you sit on your fat fucking ass reading comics... like what the hell...!!!! anyways i get a snooty little lecture from my manager dave...and i just want to punch her for over reacting so much. so now i can't look or speak to my manager or her unless forced.... and its great since the starbucks holiday party is coming up.... AND im bringing brett... AND he hated sarah long before this all started... AND we'll be drinking... and brett plans on being very honest with them... i look forward to this soap opera. whatever dude, she's fucking lame... no one at the store likes her because ALL she does is sit on HER ass... i swear the nerve of this girl is amaaaaazing...
LUCKILY there were some good points in these days too... i had a good time at this girl jaime's party friday after work with some other people that were there... then saturday (after the bitch athon from sarah) brett came over and we watched chicken run and gladiator and had deep discussions.... and he waited for me to finish work sunday and stayed over again...
i sometimes wonder if there is a minute of my day which passes that i don't think of him at some point. i've never felt anything that compares to how i feel when we have some of our talks... i love the truthfulness on both our parts... he doesn't lie to me and i've stopped even hidding things from him... each day i become more and more convinced this is someone i really love.... im trying to hold back for as long as i can... i want to make sure i know for sure that i do before i ever tell him... and he knows i feel like i do, and i know he feels like he does... and maybe we both know that we love eachother.... but right now substituted words are put in place.... but when he rests his head on my chest and says he's falling inlove with me.... that's all that matters to me in the world... every problem and worry i've ever had or have at that moment suddenly seems to blow away... i can just shut my eyes and embrace him for years to come... i hope i do.
the last few days have been so fucked.... everything at work has gone completely mad.... this girl sarah i work with completely flipped out on me on saturday.... and none the less she told my manager that i was doing no work... excuse me bitch... i cleaned out the back fridge yesterday, the front one today.... and you sit on your fat fucking ass reading comics... like what the hell...!!!! anyways i get a snooty little lecture from my manager dave...and i just want to punch her for over reacting so much. so now i can't look or speak to my manager or her unless forced.... and its great since the starbucks holiday party is coming up.... AND im bringing brett... AND he hated sarah long before this all started... AND we'll be drinking... and brett plans on being very honest with them... i look forward to this soap opera. whatever dude, she's fucking lame... no one at the store likes her because ALL she does is sit on HER ass... i swear the nerve of this girl is amaaaaazing...
LUCKILY there were some good points in these days too... i had a good time at this girl jaime's party friday after work with some other people that were there... then saturday (after the bitch athon from sarah) brett came over and we watched chicken run and gladiator and had deep discussions.... and he waited for me to finish work sunday and stayed over again...
i sometimes wonder if there is a minute of my day which passes that i don't think of him at some point. i've never felt anything that compares to how i feel when we have some of our talks... i love the truthfulness on both our parts... he doesn't lie to me and i've stopped even hidding things from him... each day i become more and more convinced this is someone i really love.... im trying to hold back for as long as i can... i want to make sure i know for sure that i do before i ever tell him... and he knows i feel like i do, and i know he feels like he does... and maybe we both know that we love eachother.... but right now substituted words are put in place.... but when he rests his head on my chest and says he's falling inlove with me.... that's all that matters to me in the world... every problem and worry i've ever had or have at that moment suddenly seems to blow away... i can just shut my eyes and embrace him for years to come... i hope i do.