(no subject)
okay so im wrong and he's amazing. i mean i was right in the first place... i have to stop thinking so fucking much and blowing everything out of proportion.
after we came home from hanging out with vanessa, ryan, and ferny... i was still kinda weird to him because of the whole paris girl thing... but we had this talk that i have never had with anyone before. it feels so crazy (in a good way) to be able to speak to someone in such a healthy way and sort things out...
so it comes down to, paris girl and him we're broken up for a year pretty much before he ever met me... when she left for paris, they were friends just as long as they were dating... so now she's like his bestfriend... which i don't know how they pull of but i can understand it. and he reasured me how he does infact like me a lot... and he wouldn't ditch me if she came to visit from paris... and it was soooo nice to hear... it went a lot more in depth but i feel kinda weird typing about it when he's sitting on the bed behind me.... more like half sleeping... god he made me feel so good i cried last nite. rawr. ferny is right he's fucking awesome. i feel so lucky... soooooo lucky... i think this is the first time i think everything is going to be alrite.
after we came home from hanging out with vanessa, ryan, and ferny... i was still kinda weird to him because of the whole paris girl thing... but we had this talk that i have never had with anyone before. it feels so crazy (in a good way) to be able to speak to someone in such a healthy way and sort things out...
so it comes down to, paris girl and him we're broken up for a year pretty much before he ever met me... when she left for paris, they were friends just as long as they were dating... so now she's like his bestfriend... which i don't know how they pull of but i can understand it. and he reasured me how he does infact like me a lot... and he wouldn't ditch me if she came to visit from paris... and it was soooo nice to hear... it went a lot more in depth but i feel kinda weird typing about it when he's sitting on the bed behind me.... more like half sleeping... god he made me feel so good i cried last nite. rawr. ferny is right he's fucking awesome. i feel so lucky... soooooo lucky... i think this is the first time i think everything is going to be alrite.