Termination (n.) - an ending or result of a "specified kind".
What can I say?
I'm not a father until the baby is born. I will repeat it again. Yes.
This view of my self has always been and will always continue to be a struggle, and I must accept that and give gratitude.
I have confidence that this continued evolution of contradictory traits that I have "hunted" and "gathered" for will continue to be a neverending obsession.
The question is, how will this evolutionary creation impact my spiritual being and growth in this world as it continues to evolve in a direction that may have the potential to contaminate the "hidden manna", erode away at my small universe of contentedness each day?
I can only assume that,
....whatever it may be (or what I don't perceive)....
.......whatever it is you want me to understand,
so SLOWLY....
Might be one of the important elements to add to my life that may be key to the "cure" of this neverending contradiction.
At least in this light, I can now clearly see, how this contradition I've so complained about for many years could be a benefit to a success that I could never truly imagine faithfully. Hopefully. lol.
But then again, when did I ever set the bar that high of a level in that area? lol? 🥴
It's just something really hard to imagine. Not something I can't handle.
As long as there is understanding (..which, evidence of such proves thus far), but can that be loosely more defined in a more "real", more present existence now?
Part of me thinks this is a joke, but there is too much evidence that points to CRAZNIESS.
Hm.
Can I write you (pl.) a love letter?
How can I know the difference between myself and what exists outside of me?
This neverending desire is such a scary trait to have.
I'm not a father until the baby is born. I will repeat it again. Yes.
This view of my self has always been and will always continue to be a struggle, and I must accept that and give gratitude.
I have confidence that this continued evolution of contradictory traits that I have "hunted" and "gathered" for will continue to be a neverending obsession.
The question is, how will this evolutionary creation impact my spiritual being and growth in this world as it continues to evolve in a direction that may have the potential to contaminate the "hidden manna", erode away at my small universe of contentedness each day?
I can only assume that,
....whatever it may be (or what I don't perceive)....
.......whatever it is you want me to understand,
so SLOWLY....
Might be one of the important elements to add to my life that may be key to the "cure" of this neverending contradiction.
At least in this light, I can now clearly see, how this contradition I've so complained about for many years could be a benefit to a success that I could never truly imagine faithfully. Hopefully. lol.
But then again, when did I ever set the bar that high of a level in that area? lol? 🥴
It's just something really hard to imagine. Not something I can't handle.
As long as there is understanding (..which, evidence of such proves thus far), but can that be loosely more defined in a more "real", more present existence now?
Part of me thinks this is a joke, but there is too much evidence that points to CRAZNIESS.
Hm.
Can I write you (pl.) a love letter?
How can I know the difference between myself and what exists outside of me?
This neverending desire is such a scary trait to have.