afraid of it? not me, i'm ready to see death anytime

[divinebbypny]

suicide...
its my life. it's my life. it's my love.
my love is gone
no one loves me anymore
and i don't love anyone anymore either.
i've been through so much hurt and pain these past few days that i feel numb to all the pain and suffering i've been going through
i'm doing perfectly fine, physically but not emotionally
people keep telling me, you'll be okay joyce...everything will be alright
ya know i hate when people tell me that because i don't like people to tell me what they thing is going to happen to me
i rather have people tell me how it is, and if i'm over reacting, i'd like people to tell me this
yesterday was one of the worst days of my life
i seriously was having suicidal thoughts....now really, i admit one day i'll be better off six feet down under.
seriously, do people just not care about me anymore....there's no one out there to love me
or for me to love in return
i'd rather just end my life here and now....
right where i belong in heaven

as i leave this note

i'll end it like this
if i die today
will you be there at my burial?
will you say a prayer for me like i've prayed for you all my life?
will you bring flower to my grave?
will you do that for me

?

tell me before i die
tell me before i cry
tell me before i lie

then i lie
then i cry
then i die