The stars have never looked so bright ...
Standing outside on this cool, cloud-free night, looking up at the sky all I could think about was how much I wish Dig was able to share the moment with me. To be able to share with him my love of just being outside on nights like tonight, stargazing. It is one of the strangest things about me, this deep love of the sky ... of the stars and the moon. For being a water sign, I have a greater interest in the heavens than I do the sea. I just wish that he was able to share it with me ... especially on a night like tonight. The sky is so clear and the stars so bright ... so many stars are even visible within city limits ... shit, I think one of the stars that is really clearly visible (probably the brightest I saw, but definitely the first one I saw upon walking outside) isn't a star at all, but a planet. Only two things could make a night like tonight even better ... one, would be to have Dig by my side ... two, would be to be way outside the city limits, preferably out in the mountains.
All of this just reminded me of our trip to Mt. Rainier a couple months ago, on the night prior to the lunar eclipse. How much of ourselves we shared with one another. How much we found within each other, that we've kept secretly hidden deep within ourselves ... similarities that we share with each other. Secret desires for our lives that we never thought we'd find in someone else. A love for, and connection to, the great outdoors ... to Nature itself ... and that this love/connection was similarly attached to each of us on physical and spiritual planes. Finding within the other, a completion of ourselves that we never thought we'd find in someone, and had pretty much given up hope in finding (or at least I did).
Quite honestly, I always dreamed of meeting someone that would share these desires/connections with me, but gave up believing that it would ever happen. I will admit that many times I tried to settle for less than my dreams ... for less than The One ... but it never worked out, they always cheated, lied, and worse (or they ended up being people who were only suppose to be my friends). These people caused me to have a lack of faith in love, trust, and dreams. I don't have those fears with him ... he embodies that which I've been dreaming of my entire life.
Finally I feel safe and loved. I can see that my dream ... my faerie tale is on it's way to becoming reality.
All of this just reminded me of our trip to Mt. Rainier a couple months ago, on the night prior to the lunar eclipse. How much of ourselves we shared with one another. How much we found within each other, that we've kept secretly hidden deep within ourselves ... similarities that we share with each other. Secret desires for our lives that we never thought we'd find in someone else. A love for, and connection to, the great outdoors ... to Nature itself ... and that this love/connection was similarly attached to each of us on physical and spiritual planes. Finding within the other, a completion of ourselves that we never thought we'd find in someone, and had pretty much given up hope in finding (or at least I did).
Quite honestly, I always dreamed of meeting someone that would share these desires/connections with me, but gave up believing that it would ever happen. I will admit that many times I tried to settle for less than my dreams ... for less than The One ... but it never worked out, they always cheated, lied, and worse (or they ended up being people who were only suppose to be my friends). These people caused me to have a lack of faith in love, trust, and dreams. I don't have those fears with him ... he embodies that which I've been dreaming of my entire life.
Finally I feel safe and loved. I can see that my dream ... my faerie tale is on it's way to becoming reality.