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fffffffffffffffffffffffff.
"Who cares for you? You're nothing but a pack of cards!"
I can feel a slump coming on.
Heavy, you know?
That impending -bitterness-.
That 'what are you really doing with yourself' shit.
Can I just sleep until March?
I want to hold and be held by you. Maybe it's weird.
But really, I feel like you are the only good constant thing I have.
Even if you are, sometimes, lately, inconstant.
And here and there, I feel like I don't have you -at all-.
But you have your reasons for dissappearing.
I want to give you a ring.
It's not like a married thing, more a. . .
I don't know.
I just thought how. . .of all the people I have taken time out to give rings to, you're the only one I haven't yet, and -really- the one to whom I should have -first-.
I don't want it to be weird.
You are the only one who makes any sense these days.
Ffffffffffffffffff. Everyone else, forget this entry.
(You all probably skip over anyway.)
I'll pick it up. I always do.
"Who cares for you? You're nothing but a pack of cards!"
I can feel a slump coming on.
Heavy, you know?
That impending -bitterness-.
That 'what are you really doing with yourself' shit.
Can I just sleep until March?
I want to hold and be held by you. Maybe it's weird.
But really, I feel like you are the only good constant thing I have.
Even if you are, sometimes, lately, inconstant.
And here and there, I feel like I don't have you -at all-.
But you have your reasons for dissappearing.
I want to give you a ring.
It's not like a married thing, more a. . .
I don't know.
I just thought how. . .of all the people I have taken time out to give rings to, you're the only one I haven't yet, and -really- the one to whom I should have -first-.
I don't want it to be weird.
You are the only one who makes any sense these days.
Ffffffffffffffffff. Everyone else, forget this entry.
(You all probably skip over anyway.)
I'll pick it up. I always do.