Today, My Best Friend Made Me Cry... :(
Today, my best friend made me cry… I know that I’m kinda sensitive and emotional. But this time, I think I have the right to feel bad about what he has done a while ago. My friends and I were waiting at the CSB carport right after we watched Macbeth for the 2nd time. Of course, nakita naming dumaan lahat ng mga casts ng Macbeth pauwi, and almost all of them who know us smiled at us, approached us, thanked us for watching, and even made beso with us before they went out of the gate. Then here came my “best friend” (who doesn’t treat me like one most of the time) who, after my friends and I called him, just raised his eyebrow at us, then went out w/o even a smile. All of us got shocked, because they know he’s my best friend. I would even usually point to his tarpaulin in school and tell them, “best friend ko yan!” I’m really so proud of him, and of our friendship to be exact! So they all asked me, “Bakit dinaanan ka lang n’yang parang hangin?” I almost wished they just didn’t see what he has done, but they did. So I had to explain to them why he did it. But believe me, I couldn’t find the words to say. No words could come out of my mouth. All that came out were tears… Hindi sa pagda-drama, pero it really hurt me badly! For a while, I had a hard time breathing upon thinking of what he just had done. Para kong isang fan na dinaanan ng artista! That’s what I felt! The least he can do is smile at us and say bye, which he didn’t even do! Considering that he doesn't treat me as his best friend kaya nya ginawa yon, e bakit sina Donner, Dianne, Mon-mon, Mai, etc, nung dinaanan nila kami, they thanked us, hugged us, and kissed us kahit di naman kami best friends? We’re just friends, but it seems like they were happier to see us, and they appreciated us more. I was so excited to see him and talk to him pa naman, pero di ko na na-express yon, coz he didn’t give me the chance to. Alam ko, ayaw n’ya ng ganitong mga ka-dramahan… he hates this actually! But this time, hindi ako nag-dadrama… I know that he has never been proud that he’s my best friend, and I don’t even know if I‘m his best friend too, pero ang masasabi ko lang… di s’ya marunong magpahalaga! I don’t demand too much from him, not even for him to treat me the way I treat him, pero sana lang, ma-feel ko kahit minsan na iba ako sa usual friends and classmates lang n’ya. I’m leaving school in 5 months time, and I dunnow how often we’ll still see each other, or worse, I don’t even know if we’ll still see each other. Pero sana, before that time comes, ma-realize naman n’ya ang importance ko… yun lang, masaya na’ko! I know he’s not expressive, but great friendship can make things happen. It’s not that I want him to change for me, it’s just for him to consider the things that make me smile, kahit minsan… kahit nga isang beses lang…