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Hmmm.
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I hate this.
I hate not being able to say what I think or feel for fear or where it'll get me. I hate being suppressed and feeling inadequate just for following logic, just for doing what's expected of me rather that what I want to do. I hate that it's always been like this, and I hate that it's the way I'm going to spend eternity.
I don't want to live like this.
I'm afraid.
I hate being afraid.
I hate being uncertain and shaky and unstable and...just confused.
I hate not knowing what I'm feeling, not trusting because I'm terrified of consequences.
I hate thinking.
I hate this.
I can't survive if it doesn't stop.
I deserve better.
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Typist: *small flail* ...yeah.
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I hate this.
I hate not being able to say what I think or feel for fear or where it'll get me. I hate being suppressed and feeling inadequate just for following logic, just for doing what's expected of me rather that what I want to do. I hate that it's always been like this, and I hate that it's the way I'm going to spend eternity.
I don't want to live like this.
I'm afraid.
I hate being afraid.
I hate being uncertain and shaky and unstable and...just confused.
I hate not knowing what I'm feeling, not trusting because I'm terrified of consequences.
I hate thinking.
I hate this.
I can't survive if it doesn't stop.
I deserve better.
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Typist: *small flail* ...yeah.