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i am so sick and tired of waiting on this stupid background check.
i am tired of not having a job.
i am frustrated at myself because i should have taken the damned job at the youth center. then i know that i would have been working by now, and i know that i wouldn't have to worry about what i'm going to do on september 9th for my grandma's surprise 84th birthday party. i don't want to be the only one that can't make it. i'll feel like such an ass.
im upset and angry and frustrated and i just want to hit something. but my answer to all of this is to just cry and feel sorry for myself.
i'm worried about what they're finding in my background. did i secretly kill or maim someone while sleepwalking? what's so bad about my past that they can't finish a damned check that should take 3 days. not 10. then ronny brings up that other jamie l. davis that lives in kent county delaware. i had this same problem when i was trying to get my library card. there actually is another jamie l. davis. he says that's probably the holdup. but if they're going by ssn, then still, they (i hope) would have the common sense to know which is which.
i'm just........
i am tired of not having a job.
i am frustrated at myself because i should have taken the damned job at the youth center. then i know that i would have been working by now, and i know that i wouldn't have to worry about what i'm going to do on september 9th for my grandma's surprise 84th birthday party. i don't want to be the only one that can't make it. i'll feel like such an ass.
im upset and angry and frustrated and i just want to hit something. but my answer to all of this is to just cry and feel sorry for myself.
i'm worried about what they're finding in my background. did i secretly kill or maim someone while sleepwalking? what's so bad about my past that they can't finish a damned check that should take 3 days. not 10. then ronny brings up that other jamie l. davis that lives in kent county delaware. i had this same problem when i was trying to get my library card. there actually is another jamie l. davis. he says that's probably the holdup. but if they're going by ssn, then still, they (i hope) would have the common sense to know which is which.
i'm just........