more confusion
I told a specific someone how I felt about them. I told him I love him. the first guy I've actually said it to, not about but to. Now I think he is just seriously playing with my feelings and head. He knows I fall for things easily, but I don't know. Oh well, only time will tell.
This weekend I have a tournament and tomorrow is our first game! <--for volleyball that is lol... I'm pretty pumped. I'm getting pretty doggone good. :) I've just kind of been sitting on my ass hangin around reading, avoiding pretty much any contact with my parents because all they do anymore is make me cry. I'm really tired of crying.
Mo, that book you gave me 'Rachel's Tears' I've cried many times over that book because I see myself in that book. I see myself in her. It's kind of scary. I feel the same things shes feeling, I feel this connection between her and me. <--weird I know but please tell me Mo, did you feel the same when you read it?
I'm so lost right now, this is supposed to be a new year where I'm all put back together, and get a new chance. But it really feels as though its falling to pieces. I'm trying to look on the brighter side of things. :) Smile Smile Smile.. thats what I need to do, smile smile smile..
Every Time
My tears trickle down my face as I watch you walk away
I know I shouldn't be surprised I should of seen it coming a long time ago.
Why was I so blind to see that you only wanted to use me?
Couldn't I look into your eye and see there is nothing there?
I was to blinded by love to see it in your eyes.
I was to blinded by love to feel it in your arms when you held me,
So what do I do now, now that all is lost?
Do I move on to another love, or stay back tears continuing to take their final cruise down my face.
I'll move on to another one, better than you by far.
I'll be strong for the days ahead, because strength is all I have.
Just promise me next time you say 'I love you' you'll mean it.
Like I did everytime I said it to you.
Jesus whats wrong with me? I need to SNAP out of it. ugh.. HELP ME. Words of encouragement could seriously be used at this point in time. *sigh* don't worry about me. promise.
This weekend I have a tournament and tomorrow is our first game! <--for volleyball that is lol... I'm pretty pumped. I'm getting pretty doggone good. :) I've just kind of been sitting on my ass hangin around reading, avoiding pretty much any contact with my parents because all they do anymore is make me cry. I'm really tired of crying.
Mo, that book you gave me 'Rachel's Tears' I've cried many times over that book because I see myself in that book. I see myself in her. It's kind of scary. I feel the same things shes feeling, I feel this connection between her and me. <--weird I know but please tell me Mo, did you feel the same when you read it?
I'm so lost right now, this is supposed to be a new year where I'm all put back together, and get a new chance. But it really feels as though its falling to pieces. I'm trying to look on the brighter side of things. :) Smile Smile Smile.. thats what I need to do, smile smile smile..
Every Time
My tears trickle down my face as I watch you walk away
I know I shouldn't be surprised I should of seen it coming a long time ago.
Why was I so blind to see that you only wanted to use me?
Couldn't I look into your eye and see there is nothing there?
I was to blinded by love to see it in your eyes.
I was to blinded by love to feel it in your arms when you held me,
So what do I do now, now that all is lost?
Do I move on to another love, or stay back tears continuing to take their final cruise down my face.
I'll move on to another one, better than you by far.
I'll be strong for the days ahead, because strength is all I have.
Just promise me next time you say 'I love you' you'll mean it.
Like I did everytime I said it to you.
Jesus whats wrong with me? I need to SNAP out of it. ugh.. HELP ME. Words of encouragement could seriously be used at this point in time. *sigh* don't worry about me. promise.