15 days....
My mother belives with all her heart that I'm a very serious Christian. In some senses I am. But in most I'm not.
I don't like her speeches, and everytime she says something about how God will solve everything and that he has this ultimate plan. I'm sure in her mind he does. Don't get me wrong, I believe in God and the Devil and Heaven and Hell. But I don't believe it to the extent she does. She recently told me she wanted to be a regular speaker at my church and she thought it was great because then the whole family could go. But my first thought was 'Wow mom, I'm happy for you' my second was, I don't believe like that anymore.
I used to have God as a huge part of my life. Church every Sunday, Sunday School, and Confirmation. Ever since one service that I listened to where it questioned faith have I really thought about how much I believe and whats real and whats fantasy. So I've made a choice in my faith. To believe in God, but not believe everything I hear anymore.
Isn't religion supposed to be how you choose to believe? Not what your mother chooses for you? ...
The reason I bring this up is because my mother wants me to go to a church picnic today, but I opted for yoga. I feel a tad guilty but I think that both her and I shall get over it. Even though we will both get over it. she is still very upset and angry with me.
What gets me, is that she keeps saying I need to get out and have fun with my goodrich friends considering the things that are happening at school. So I understand she wants me to go with her but I told her I probably wasn't going.
I guess I should just be sorry then, considering all I do is upset her anymore.
maybe boarding school is going to be an option.
hear about the poo crew?
<3
I don't like her speeches, and everytime she says something about how God will solve everything and that he has this ultimate plan. I'm sure in her mind he does. Don't get me wrong, I believe in God and the Devil and Heaven and Hell. But I don't believe it to the extent she does. She recently told me she wanted to be a regular speaker at my church and she thought it was great because then the whole family could go. But my first thought was 'Wow mom, I'm happy for you' my second was, I don't believe like that anymore.
I used to have God as a huge part of my life. Church every Sunday, Sunday School, and Confirmation. Ever since one service that I listened to where it questioned faith have I really thought about how much I believe and whats real and whats fantasy. So I've made a choice in my faith. To believe in God, but not believe everything I hear anymore.
Isn't religion supposed to be how you choose to believe? Not what your mother chooses for you? ...
The reason I bring this up is because my mother wants me to go to a church picnic today, but I opted for yoga. I feel a tad guilty but I think that both her and I shall get over it. Even though we will both get over it. she is still very upset and angry with me.
What gets me, is that she keeps saying I need to get out and have fun with my goodrich friends considering the things that are happening at school. So I understand she wants me to go with her but I told her I probably wasn't going.
I guess I should just be sorry then, considering all I do is upset her anymore.
maybe boarding school is going to be an option.
hear about the poo crew?
<3