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[divechic186]

I really can't read some people's livejournals anymore. They confuse the shit out of me. When that happens, I dwell on them for way to long and i just get even more confused. Confused because I want to know what they are talking about but at the same time, dont. I want to know why they are saying it and why they can't just talk to me since I'm

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[dyng2bealive]

I am probably one of the GSA-elite that you speak of, and I apologize. In all honesty, I did try to keep it to myself when I first got back. But then there are several of us who went, and what can I say? We really bonded over the summer and the experiences we had, and the new people that we met are some of our closest friends now. That happens when you have so much in common with them. It's not that I value my older friendships any less, it's just that I've made a connection with these new people that I haven't ever made with anyone else. And when we talk about GSA, we aren't trying to be exclusive. Actually, I would really love for you all to meet all of these people- they're so much fun to hang out with. And our time with so many of them is so limited. So it makes it really special and we get really excited when we do get to see them. But I do apologize if we are acting elite or something, it's definitely not our intention. It's just something really cool that we experienced, and we don't think of ourselves as above anyone else, just maybe slightly different because we all went through so many different experiences-- including you! It's normal that it will take us a while to readjust to each other. But I still love you, dear.

[divechic186]

I don't care that you've made new friends and that feel more connected with them. That's great. It's the fact that it hurts to be forgotten about. Intentionally or unintentionally. People get mad at me because I only hang out with Matthew. That's because they never remember me until right before they want to do something, leaving me to my own devices all the while at school. Plus, sometimes I'd just rather hang out with someone who remembers me all the time than just when its convenient for them. I can't explain it very well. And as for the readjusting part, I don't know if that will even happen. It just feels like we've gone far enough on our own ways that we can't go back. I do appreciate you calling me last Wednesday though, when i hit that pole. It's nice to have someone actually call me for once.