fine, english, we'll talk in.
this one is so that mary doesn't need to use babelfish translators anymore.
for the past few months i have been in a constant state of loneliness as i came to the realization that i no longer felt anything for j and that we had grown apart in so many ways. emotionally, we were dead and physically, it was starting to show. we were simply going through the motions and i was lonely and i missed having someone. it's the cliche that when there's someone around, that's when you feel loneliest.
j is my best friend and someone who i will always have this incredibly deep and insane connection with. i love him deeply, but i have not been in love with him for the longest time. i think the past few months, we have both realized that our relationship was going nowhere and that to attempt anything would only be torture for the both of us.
i met someone last weekend.
i feel like i am back in high school because i am giddy and gushing and smiling all the goddamn time. i laugh harder than i've laughed in a long time.
i was afraid because i met him at a party and we were both fantastically drunk and i was worried that my feelings for him were leftover drunken infatuation, but over the past week, i have had the pleasure of getting to know him and he gives me those butterflies and goosebumps and a higher heart rate that i haven't had in so long. it's only been a week and i've already noticed how he complements my quirkiness and i'm so not used to someone reacting to my idiosyncrasies the way he does and i absolutely love it. i absolutely adore him and i honestly have not been so excited for something in so long.
i think we all sort of go along and get in a rut and get grumpy and miserable and i love these moments, this moment that i'm in right now, because it's these moments that make all the grumpiness worth it.
i think i have been in a constant state of waiting and things have happened to me, no doubt, but nothing has compared to this and sometimes you just know and i feel like this is the something that i have been waiting for. and i know that it's really dumb because everyone says this sort of shit every single time they meet a new person and it becomes infatuation stage but it's fucking grand, it is. the infatuation stage is phenomenal and it's a fucking drug and i wouldn't give anything to stop enjoying this.
i'm so excited to see where this goes and i'm so ready to finally get somewhere that's not here. and i feel like he's the person to really make me a better person and i really honestly can't wait.
for the past few months i have been in a constant state of loneliness as i came to the realization that i no longer felt anything for j and that we had grown apart in so many ways. emotionally, we were dead and physically, it was starting to show. we were simply going through the motions and i was lonely and i missed having someone. it's the cliche that when there's someone around, that's when you feel loneliest.
j is my best friend and someone who i will always have this incredibly deep and insane connection with. i love him deeply, but i have not been in love with him for the longest time. i think the past few months, we have both realized that our relationship was going nowhere and that to attempt anything would only be torture for the both of us.
i met someone last weekend.
i feel like i am back in high school because i am giddy and gushing and smiling all the goddamn time. i laugh harder than i've laughed in a long time.
i was afraid because i met him at a party and we were both fantastically drunk and i was worried that my feelings for him were leftover drunken infatuation, but over the past week, i have had the pleasure of getting to know him and he gives me those butterflies and goosebumps and a higher heart rate that i haven't had in so long. it's only been a week and i've already noticed how he complements my quirkiness and i'm so not used to someone reacting to my idiosyncrasies the way he does and i absolutely love it. i absolutely adore him and i honestly have not been so excited for something in so long.
i think we all sort of go along and get in a rut and get grumpy and miserable and i love these moments, this moment that i'm in right now, because it's these moments that make all the grumpiness worth it.
i think i have been in a constant state of waiting and things have happened to me, no doubt, but nothing has compared to this and sometimes you just know and i feel like this is the something that i have been waiting for. and i know that it's really dumb because everyone says this sort of shit every single time they meet a new person and it becomes infatuation stage but it's fucking grand, it is. the infatuation stage is phenomenal and it's a fucking drug and i wouldn't give anything to stop enjoying this.
i'm so excited to see where this goes and i'm so ready to finally get somewhere that's not here. and i feel like he's the person to really make me a better person and i really honestly can't wait.