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[divavalkyrie]

.I am so tired, but just can't sleep. This kinda bites as everyone in my little apt is asleep and none of my wow friends are online. So, I am thinking that the homework I said I would do in the morning might get done. Amazing....yes, I know. I am not sure exactly what to write in this thing, but hey.....grrr.....I am tired and annoyed. This week has been hel on earth and I can't wait till things start looking up for me. Today my oldest decided that it would be a good idea to tell her teacher then her counsilor that Chris beat her. So, I get home and am told that someone from family services has been at the house. Morgan gets home a few minutes later and I ask her about it and she tells me that she told her teacher I beat her. I ask her why she would do such a thing and she tells me because she misses her dad. So, now I have a file and Chris has a file! Can you believe that! Well the lady from family services took photos to prove that my eldest did not have any bruises on her and that she was just fine. She talked to my sister-in-law, my dad and my mom to make sure that I didn't beat the girls. I can't believe Morgan would do something like this. I am guessing somewhere in her little head it made sense to her that her daddy went away because he beat me so he would come back if someone else got in trouble for it too. I can't believe she would do this. Just lovely! At least it was an open and closed case. I don't hit my kids, sure they get spankings every once in awhile, but that is a last resort type thing. (For the big major things...and yes Morgan got a spanking by me this weekend for lying and stealing some of my kitchen tools and also being mean to her sister.) I don't believe in hitting children....why would I? I just left a man to prove to my children that hitting wasn't right. Serriously, do you really think I, me...little me, would ever hit someone smaller then me? So, Monday was the hurricane, tuesday was my court hearing and today was this shit. Will my life never stop being a fucking soap? Oh, and to add to it, there is no way in hel that I will get my char back on wow. Which means that I spent all of that time for nothing!Great fucking week so far, I can't wait to see what the rest of the week brings....oh yeah, and I need a new babysister because mine ditched me. And I am broke, so I have to ask my dad for money until the child support comes through. Can we all say yay, what a wonderful time. And I am sitting here wondering why I can't sleep....maybe my life fucking sucks ass and I can't seem to get anything right. Well, hel, can someone say depression going into manic mode at this point. Okay, so I am ranting....anyone else's week been worse? Can anyone tell me I don't have a reason to bitch, moan and complain? I didn't think so. All I can do now is cry and that really bites because it is the type of crying where you really want to be held and there is no one around to hold me right now.....I just want everything to get better....that's not to much to ask is it? I mean at least I got what it is that I wanted (more or less) from the judge...money, my restraining order and not to have Branon get the girls....but serriously, that just isn't cutting it right now. Okay....well, the recipe timelines aren't going to do themselves now...so I better get to it and stop ranting about how horrible things are and do my work so that I can try for my A in meat fab. (Oh, and we get to watch the slaghter movie tomorrow, so I won't want to eat my steak....damn them....I love my steaks and I won't be able to eat it as I have to watch how they kill little animals....grrr...I can deal with it when the head is off, but alive...that's too much for me...can anyone say veggie agian...)

Anyway....love ya much....keep me in your thoughts...positive energy, luck anything would be helpful right now

Beck