From bad to worse

[divavalkyrie]

Well, I seriously thought things between myself and Branon were bad and couldn't get any worse.....boy was I wrong. Now, he has decided to say the big fuck you and ditch me with no day care. That means that I was not able to go to class today. (The fact that I scored a 91 on the servsafe and can now teach the class was so dampened.) He said that if I was not willing to be "physically intimate" with him that he would not be able to be around me and that I would have to find someone else to babysit the kids. Also, he called my mom and told her that Chris was staying over. So and your point is....I left his ass months ago and it doesn't matter that I am still legally married to him. I left him, why doesn't anyone understand that. So what if I want to have someone sleep over. Do the reasons not matter at all....maybe like we were up studying late and he lives an hour away. And even if I am "sleeping" with him....does it really matter. (I am not saying that I am and I am not saying that I am not....doesn't matter enough to say one way or the other.) Branon cheated on me twice, beat me badly a few times, emotionally abused the shit out of me and all around was a jackass. And now I am, to quote his mother "a manipulative, tyrannical whore".....yeah, I so did a number on him emotionally, I am an unmedicated bipolar person that wanted to kill herself for the 8 years that I was with him.....so if any of you know anything about depressed bipolar people it is not like we are ones to do more then think of getting back at anyone.....don't have the self confidence to go through with it. Yeah, I did get really pissed when he flaunted those bitches he cheated on me with in front of me and when he told me he wanted to fuck other people. Go figure, I mean seriously....that's not a bad thing. Also, yeah, I did keep the fact that I was pregnant with Cessie silent because Branon would have made me abort her. As it is I had to get my fucking tubes tied to be able to keep her. So, since those are the only things that have been brought up to me.......so you decided....who was the worst, who really screwed who up? Gods I am so pissed that I really could ask for someone to go beat the fuck out of him or do it myself, but that wouldn't solve anything and just bring more trouble.

Anyway, I am going to g a deal with the kids.

~Becca