mamma mia
It took me about 7 hours to write 1000 words of my 2000 word paper that is due Wednesday. And I haven't even begun writing about what my paper is supposed to be about. ha! hhhmm. I hope that doesn't cause too much trouble. I had about 4 sources to write with and now I have about 2 which isn't helping the matter.
I am really bad at ruining birthday presents. I totally ruined Todd's surprise with the concert when I found out about it and called him to ask if I should get tickets for us and he was actually planning on it as a surprise. Then I went to the mall today and bought a wallet that I wanted and had seen in Cali while shopping with my ma only to find out today that she actually bought it for me and is sending it in a gift box for my birthday. hahaha. I will not allow surprises to happen apparently.
I'm singing in chruch tomorrow. Even though I don't really feel like I'm singing at all. I'm leading a song that she had me sing just about all of the time that I've heard noone really likes. I know I can sing it but she makes me sing it far too many times. Then I am sing some type of small harmony on some songs that I'm not too familiar with where you prolly won't hear me anyway. Bum Bum.
I've been freaking out about what I'm gonna do after I graduate and had a long convo with my Ma about it last night that actually put me at some ease. Whoda thunk it? I just don't know what I would do if I was financially independent from my parents. I know most people do it but I don't think I can handle that. I think I'm just freaking out thinking that I need to find a job in my field right away when I can just get a regular job now and search out ones I want. If I do have to move to find a job in film or video then I don't have to do that asap. It's hard to look for job openings when I still have schoolwork and exams and stuff to worry about. I feel like it should be like senior year in high school when you don't have to take the final exams. haha. I mean I've tried hard these passed 4 years so I should get a break right? I rarelly if ever miss class so I am obviously picking some stuff up.
I like to imagine the world is under my control.
I am really bad at ruining birthday presents. I totally ruined Todd's surprise with the concert when I found out about it and called him to ask if I should get tickets for us and he was actually planning on it as a surprise. Then I went to the mall today and bought a wallet that I wanted and had seen in Cali while shopping with my ma only to find out today that she actually bought it for me and is sending it in a gift box for my birthday. hahaha. I will not allow surprises to happen apparently.
I'm singing in chruch tomorrow. Even though I don't really feel like I'm singing at all. I'm leading a song that she had me sing just about all of the time that I've heard noone really likes. I know I can sing it but she makes me sing it far too many times. Then I am sing some type of small harmony on some songs that I'm not too familiar with where you prolly won't hear me anyway. Bum Bum.
I've been freaking out about what I'm gonna do after I graduate and had a long convo with my Ma about it last night that actually put me at some ease. Whoda thunk it? I just don't know what I would do if I was financially independent from my parents. I know most people do it but I don't think I can handle that. I think I'm just freaking out thinking that I need to find a job in my field right away when I can just get a regular job now and search out ones I want. If I do have to move to find a job in film or video then I don't have to do that asap. It's hard to look for job openings when I still have schoolwork and exams and stuff to worry about. I feel like it should be like senior year in high school when you don't have to take the final exams. haha. I mean I've tried hard these passed 4 years so I should get a break right? I rarelly if ever miss class so I am obviously picking some stuff up.
I like to imagine the world is under my control.