Blow
Well I feel like crap right now. Emotionally and physically. I drank a little too much last night and got sick and today am still kind of out of it and tired. I mean I drank wine before but I guess since I didn't eat anything for dinner that probably was the reason it hit so hard. It was really a horrible feeling. I've only gotten sick twice in my life from drinking and both of those times have been this last semester. Am I trying to be too wild in celebration of my college career ending? I don't really know. I always took pride in myself for knowing my limits and that I would never get sick from drinking cause that's just stupid. Well it is stupid. But I think recently I just have not cared.
I was also emotionally unstable because I have this friend. Or I don't even know if we are friends anymore. We don't talk we don't hang out. I could even get this person to send me one e-mail to let me know what was going on when I was in Italy. The last time I hung out with her it was awkward and really not that much fun for me because she wanted to meet with some other people who basically make me feel like I am totally not in their group. But she thinks this is funn. I called her to talk or hang out or whatever and she didnt' call me back for several days. That can get anyone annoyed. How long does it really take to make a phonecall? She said she was having a bad day. I called again and felt like I was forcing her to talk to me and then she said she was going to take a nap. Well, I guess we don't have anymore to say to each other. Then I run into her on campus and she says she'll call me and we'll do lunch. She never does. Then I week later she leaves me a message saying that she'll take some of the blame for that but that it is also my fault. Okey that makes sense. Because I totally feel like she's dying for me to call. Overall this I feel like she has not respect for my relationship with my boyfriend or any respect for me for that matter. She doesn't understand and she doesn't try to understand and I'm tired of feeling bad and trying to make her understand. A friendship should not have to be this much hard work. You either want to be friends with someone or you don't. She wouldn't even sit by my boyfriend when she came to see my show. I know if that tables would have been turned I would have. If she doens't except everthing in my life, why should we be friends? Can you really make friends by putting the blame on everthing else all of the time except for yourself? I don't know.
I was also emotionally unstable because I have this friend. Or I don't even know if we are friends anymore. We don't talk we don't hang out. I could even get this person to send me one e-mail to let me know what was going on when I was in Italy. The last time I hung out with her it was awkward and really not that much fun for me because she wanted to meet with some other people who basically make me feel like I am totally not in their group. But she thinks this is funn. I called her to talk or hang out or whatever and she didnt' call me back for several days. That can get anyone annoyed. How long does it really take to make a phonecall? She said she was having a bad day. I called again and felt like I was forcing her to talk to me and then she said she was going to take a nap. Well, I guess we don't have anymore to say to each other. Then I run into her on campus and she says she'll call me and we'll do lunch. She never does. Then I week later she leaves me a message saying that she'll take some of the blame for that but that it is also my fault. Okey that makes sense. Because I totally feel like she's dying for me to call. Overall this I feel like she has not respect for my relationship with my boyfriend or any respect for me for that matter. She doesn't understand and she doesn't try to understand and I'm tired of feeling bad and trying to make her understand. A friendship should not have to be this much hard work. You either want to be friends with someone or you don't. She wouldn't even sit by my boyfriend when she came to see my show. I know if that tables would have been turned I would have. If she doens't except everthing in my life, why should we be friends? Can you really make friends by putting the blame on everthing else all of the time except for yourself? I don't know.