I'm quite literally fighting with everyone.
Yesterday in a crying fit in front of my mother I exclaimed "Something is really wrong with me." I repeated it again. I'm at the point of trying to figure out whether something is really wrong with me and my perception of the world/the people around me or if it's them.
First of all, my mother's husband is emotionally and socially retarded. He can't speak up when he thinks something is wrong. I say if it's so wrong that you sit there and stew and nothing but negative energy comes off your body and you're making everyone uncomfortable, then you should say something. If it's that much of an outrage and injustice. If me having a conversation with my Mom about my blood work is so insulting and abusive toward her, then you need to speak it. Obviously, the conversation was completely harmless. It is quite obvious to everyone else that he has a problem with me and my brother having a relationship with my Mom. He ran off my brother already by being physically abusive toward him. In this incidence, he made a comment about my blood work and it means this and this, and I told him flat out that he was wrong. Well his dick went soft after that, and he didn't feel like a man, so he got upset. He can't handle being told he's wrong. Poor thing, needs to have his ego fluffed up every time he speaks to someone. I lost it, needless to say. It's so funny to watch someone with emotional issues squirm when someone calls them out on their absurdity. He made something small Mom and I were talking about into some scenario of Donna having to deal with her badass kid who won't quit abusing her. Could you imagine being so insecure you couldn't let a mother interact with her own child? That's how much attention ole small dick Fred Yoho needs. Needless to say I gave him a piece of my mind as he was putting on his boots to get some air. He always says he's gotta keep a tight hold on his temper. I want to say THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE TO KEEP A TIGHT HOLD ON YOUR TENDENCY TOWARD VIOLENCE DOES NOT IMPRESS ME. IT ONLY SHOWS ME HOW MUCH OF A CHAUVINISTIC SEXIST FUCKWAD PIG YOU ARE. ALSO, YOU DO NOT INTIMIDATE ME. TOUCH ME, YOU'RE GOING TO JAIL. And like he'd have an argument I couldn't destroy anyway. It's annoying to watch someone who has so much to prove. It's annoying that they are only satisfied with your relationship when they are in a teaching role, where they can feel comfortable that they know more than you do. That they have something over you, some superior knowledge. His mommy issues are very evident, and it's quite clear he cannot handle a woman who stands up for herself and tells him exactly how it is. He definitely cannot deal with the fact that I back up every argument I have. "I haven't been right my whole life, Katie." Well sorry for you. You certainly spend enough time letting everyone around you know exactly how much you know and how you are right about everything you say. You don't like people who live their own lives and make their own choices. You criticize everybody for everything they do. I need to understand that that is a reflection of YOU and not me. Your passive aggressive bullshit does nothing but remind me of how much a pussy you are. I am not like you. I never want to be like you. There is nothing that you can teach me about being a human being. I do not care to learn your lessons about life. You haven't lived one. You are ignorant, intolerant, emotionally stifled and disconnected. I feel sorry for you. You can't even handle a conversation about the actions you perpetrate against other people. You can't even face what you do. You cannot defend your behavior.
I will speak my mind at all times. I will be free to defend myself against attacks. I will speak up when I am being mistreated. Understand this. Act accordingly.
My brother went APE SHIT on me the other day. But though I feel the natural pull to call and tell him about these dumb ass Christians and my dumb ass stepdad, I feel it's much for the best. He's on some other shit. His hatred of women consistently replays in his life again and again. I feel sorry for him.
This christian girl on my facebook sent me a message about how she loves me and wishes I could educate myself about Christianity. All that conversation has done is fuel my hatred for it and delineate further why I do not subscribe to the religion. On a personal level, I do not understand how you would send a message to an obviously educated person telling them to educate themselves about a religion they practiced for years? She shows her ignorance. I feel sorry for these people.
I miss D. In so many ways.
First of all, my mother's husband is emotionally and socially retarded. He can't speak up when he thinks something is wrong. I say if it's so wrong that you sit there and stew and nothing but negative energy comes off your body and you're making everyone uncomfortable, then you should say something. If it's that much of an outrage and injustice. If me having a conversation with my Mom about my blood work is so insulting and abusive toward her, then you need to speak it. Obviously, the conversation was completely harmless. It is quite obvious to everyone else that he has a problem with me and my brother having a relationship with my Mom. He ran off my brother already by being physically abusive toward him. In this incidence, he made a comment about my blood work and it means this and this, and I told him flat out that he was wrong. Well his dick went soft after that, and he didn't feel like a man, so he got upset. He can't handle being told he's wrong. Poor thing, needs to have his ego fluffed up every time he speaks to someone. I lost it, needless to say. It's so funny to watch someone with emotional issues squirm when someone calls them out on their absurdity. He made something small Mom and I were talking about into some scenario of Donna having to deal with her badass kid who won't quit abusing her. Could you imagine being so insecure you couldn't let a mother interact with her own child? That's how much attention ole small dick Fred Yoho needs. Needless to say I gave him a piece of my mind as he was putting on his boots to get some air. He always says he's gotta keep a tight hold on his temper. I want to say THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE TO KEEP A TIGHT HOLD ON YOUR TENDENCY TOWARD VIOLENCE DOES NOT IMPRESS ME. IT ONLY SHOWS ME HOW MUCH OF A CHAUVINISTIC SEXIST FUCKWAD PIG YOU ARE. ALSO, YOU DO NOT INTIMIDATE ME. TOUCH ME, YOU'RE GOING TO JAIL. And like he'd have an argument I couldn't destroy anyway. It's annoying to watch someone who has so much to prove. It's annoying that they are only satisfied with your relationship when they are in a teaching role, where they can feel comfortable that they know more than you do. That they have something over you, some superior knowledge. His mommy issues are very evident, and it's quite clear he cannot handle a woman who stands up for herself and tells him exactly how it is. He definitely cannot deal with the fact that I back up every argument I have. "I haven't been right my whole life, Katie." Well sorry for you. You certainly spend enough time letting everyone around you know exactly how much you know and how you are right about everything you say. You don't like people who live their own lives and make their own choices. You criticize everybody for everything they do. I need to understand that that is a reflection of YOU and not me. Your passive aggressive bullshit does nothing but remind me of how much a pussy you are. I am not like you. I never want to be like you. There is nothing that you can teach me about being a human being. I do not care to learn your lessons about life. You haven't lived one. You are ignorant, intolerant, emotionally stifled and disconnected. I feel sorry for you. You can't even handle a conversation about the actions you perpetrate against other people. You can't even face what you do. You cannot defend your behavior.
I will speak my mind at all times. I will be free to defend myself against attacks. I will speak up when I am being mistreated. Understand this. Act accordingly.
My brother went APE SHIT on me the other day. But though I feel the natural pull to call and tell him about these dumb ass Christians and my dumb ass stepdad, I feel it's much for the best. He's on some other shit. His hatred of women consistently replays in his life again and again. I feel sorry for him.
This christian girl on my facebook sent me a message about how she loves me and wishes I could educate myself about Christianity. All that conversation has done is fuel my hatred for it and delineate further why I do not subscribe to the religion. On a personal level, I do not understand how you would send a message to an obviously educated person telling them to educate themselves about a religion they practiced for years? She shows her ignorance. I feel sorry for these people.
I miss D. In so many ways.