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i think i at least owe it to you to give you another chance. i could for instance let go of old ideas about how relationships are constructed. Dr. Jean Houston suggests "This journey begins by letting go of old beliefs and patterns to make room for the new beliefs and capacities that will empower you to awaken to and live your higher purpose." the beliefs i have held my entire life suggest that all men cheat. if they don't cheat, they want to, and they will. my beliefs tell me that men have no real value for women. that men never really get attached. there are men in my world who reinforce these beliefs. all of my man's friends, for example, live by this creed. and i find it exceedingly difficult to have any trust for the man in my life. but i acknowledge that if this is going to work i absolutely must let go of "old beliefs and patterns" to make room for the reality, rather than my delusion. i am living in a delusion, and it's driving both of us crazy. it's driving us apart. steering us every way but stronger with one another.
d tells me "if you're going to be thinking i'm out there trying to mess around, then just give it up." what can i do to create a pattern of trust in my relationship? let go of the past. the past has passed; there's no changing it. there's no manipulating it to make it say what you want it to. accept the reality. the reality is that he basically goes nowhere and does nothing. I must quit allowing my insecurity to rule my relationships.
d tells me "if you're going to be thinking i'm out there trying to mess around, then just give it up." what can i do to create a pattern of trust in my relationship? let go of the past. the past has passed; there's no changing it. there's no manipulating it to make it say what you want it to. accept the reality. the reality is that he basically goes nowhere and does nothing. I must quit allowing my insecurity to rule my relationships.