Darwin
I wonder why healthy thought patterns were granted to some people in life and not to others. Part of me wonders if my type is being weeded out by some sort of Darwin natural selection thing. Eventually sitting too long with destructive thoughts ends in a downfall. There have been several people on my mother's side in Greece who have killed themselves. Sometimes I make the argument that Americans fall easily into depression because of our culture, while I sometimes include myself in this, I always remember the fact that they didn't live here.
Is there a weak link in me that my thought patterns will indirectly one day weed out? Am I some sort of sickly creature that's going to be eventually be destroyed?
Why are some people so much more able to do more with their lives readily without all the prepping and self prodding, and coaching, and reading the self esteem books and hours of therapy? Are they just in a separate class from me? Is it their life goal to invent and brainstorm, thinking of ways to make things easier, more efficient and over all better? Is my life goal to just simply to learn how to think correctly so I can get through a day without obsessing about every little thing? Because that seems to be just about the only thing I can try to do right now. Everything else just feels too draining. Just basically try to think of ways and reasons to survive. That goal doesn't effect anyone but me. On a grander scale it doesn't matter.
Is there a weak link in me that my thought patterns will indirectly one day weed out? Am I some sort of sickly creature that's going to be eventually be destroyed?
Why are some people so much more able to do more with their lives readily without all the prepping and self prodding, and coaching, and reading the self esteem books and hours of therapy? Are they just in a separate class from me? Is it their life goal to invent and brainstorm, thinking of ways to make things easier, more efficient and over all better? Is my life goal to just simply to learn how to think correctly so I can get through a day without obsessing about every little thing? Because that seems to be just about the only thing I can try to do right now. Everything else just feels too draining. Just basically try to think of ways and reasons to survive. That goal doesn't effect anyone but me. On a grander scale it doesn't matter.