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so there was this guy. and this guy and i...well, lets say we enjoyed each others company for a lil while. a short while, but a while that might be presumed intense by those who were unfortunate enough to witness it. at some point, this guy decided (for reasons unbeknownst to me) that he has had enough of this and leaves me without more than "we cant do this anymore." so i, being the beautiful, strong, iron-clad woman i am...gets over him. until he shows up...and he smiles and the second he touched me...i wanted to cry. because i thought it didnt matter that he didnt want me. i thought it just mattered that i wanted him. but iw as so so so wrong. it does matter. and i do want him. and i want him to want me. but i dont get to see him on a regualar basis anymore...and i wish i did. so this guy...suffice it to say, hes the first guy to mean something to me in a while. and i dont know if i should call him. and im begging for advice here, which i know isnt very becoming of a lady but im begging anyways. tell me what you think i should do...call? or dont call? chase or let it go? give me a tidbit cause ive been outta this game for a while and i just dont know.
i <3 wintertime. but it makes me want to cuddle. and ive never felt more alone than this time last year.
..but alone isnt so bad in this beautiful world. leo and i found this incredible spot the other day and im just aching to go back and lay there and look at the sky and dream about all the ways i wish life could be. being in love with a place makes me feel like i could be in love with anyone, and thats a nice feeling.
i wonder why i liked him. and i wonder why he and i just stopped talking.
and of a different him: i wonder why i was dumb. cause underneath...i guess im just like everyone else.
i've got a lot to lose so im betting high and im begging you...before it ends just tell me where to begin...
i <3 wintertime. but it makes me want to cuddle. and ive never felt more alone than this time last year.
..but alone isnt so bad in this beautiful world. leo and i found this incredible spot the other day and im just aching to go back and lay there and look at the sky and dream about all the ways i wish life could be. being in love with a place makes me feel like i could be in love with anyone, and thats a nice feeling.
i wonder why i liked him. and i wonder why he and i just stopped talking.
and of a different him: i wonder why i was dumb. cause underneath...i guess im just like everyone else.
i've got a lot to lose so im betting high and im begging you...before it ends just tell me where to begin...