Rollercoasters are not fun.
This rollercoaster is killing me.
Today, he mentioned that he might move back to Cali. He can't bear to be away from his son. He also talked about not knowing what he was going to do about his wife. He's also much less "sure" about where things were going between us today. Still trust. Still trust him, but understand that he has to do what is best for him and his family. I'm scared. I'm so scared. I have hope though. He's unsure. I have until at the very least until the end of July. Even if he has to do what is best for his son and go back to Cali.. maybe this is still salvageable. You don't know throw in the towel on love like this. I obviously am not moving to Cali, but maybe, just maybe there is some kind of middle compromise. I'm not going to let him go that easy. I got him again, and I'm not going to let him leave without fighting. Want to talk to him. Want to hold him. Want to spend some more time with him. I talked to him for over an hour again today. Need to get a little further under his skin first, me thinks. I need him to work with me to figure something out instead of just doing this on his own.
Trying really hard not to see this as black and white. Trying very hard to not let emotions take over. Wanted very much to have a glass of wine. That won't help... and I need to finish packing.
Ok.. enough. I'm back to packing.
Today, he mentioned that he might move back to Cali. He can't bear to be away from his son. He also talked about not knowing what he was going to do about his wife. He's also much less "sure" about where things were going between us today. Still trust. Still trust him, but understand that he has to do what is best for him and his family. I'm scared. I'm so scared. I have hope though. He's unsure. I have until at the very least until the end of July. Even if he has to do what is best for his son and go back to Cali.. maybe this is still salvageable. You don't know throw in the towel on love like this. I obviously am not moving to Cali, but maybe, just maybe there is some kind of middle compromise. I'm not going to let him go that easy. I got him again, and I'm not going to let him leave without fighting. Want to talk to him. Want to hold him. Want to spend some more time with him. I talked to him for over an hour again today. Need to get a little further under his skin first, me thinks. I need him to work with me to figure something out instead of just doing this on his own.
Trying really hard not to see this as black and white. Trying very hard to not let emotions take over. Wanted very much to have a glass of wine. That won't help... and I need to finish packing.
Ok.. enough. I'm back to packing.