I will miss you, Winston

[divamatrix]

They put Winston to sleep today. He had a neurological disorder that caused paralysis of his hind legs, bladder and bowels. I went over to see him before they took him to the vet. I started crying and he started freaking out and shaking. Catherine warned me to be happy and cheery because he was sensitive to others' moods. Sure enough, as soon as I acted like everything was ok, he calmed down. I can't imagine what he must have been feeling when they took him to the vet. I can picture him laying there in a vet's office, looking up at everyone, knowing that he was about to die. My dad said he was really scared and shaking. That dog was smart. He knew what was up.. I'm sure of it. Then they gave him the injection and he was at peace. I wish I could have been there. I've been crying all day. I'm exhausted. Must sleep now. Work and everything else be damned.

I love you, Winston. I'm going to miss you so much. Thank you for showing me how cool beagles really are. I'll take extra good care of mine (not that I wouldn't.. but.. you know). You were the best dog ever. I hope Seamus can live up to the high standards you set.

Leaving for Vegas in the morning. I hope I can snap outta this.