Deja vu
I've posted what, 2-3 times in the past year? Jeez. I really need to start journaling again. Especially with the way my life is going!
Derby - was a good season, lots of new stuff and learning and tears. But, it looks like I may end up quitting, again. If I do, it will be for good. It really sucks and has nothing to do with the league at all, but there is a person who hurt me more than can ever be repaired, and I just can't be around her. Sucks to let one person take me away from something I love, but betrayal cuts to the core.
Friends - what friends? I've got acquaintances, girls I play derby with and talk to occasionally, and people who I need to spend more time with, but I'm pretty much a hermit lately. And my closest friend lately broke my heart and threw it in a blender. I think maybe I SHOULD quit derby, just to separate myself from everything and find some new people for my life.
Life - I'm just sad. I don't know what to do about it. I'm trying to get a new job, because the job at the school just became too much drama and physical pain for the amount of money I was getting paid. I've got an application in with the court system and I passed all my tests, I'm just waiting for an interview. So, we'll see.
Jay and I hit a MAJOR bump and almost didn't make it, it started out as my fault and then rolled downhill fast to where we had the divorce paperwork ready to go. Then he got into a pretty major motorcycle accident (on my birthday, of all days) and he came home so I could help him out. He broke his wrist in 6 places (scaphoid, ulna, and shattered his radius into 4 pieces). We worked through some stuff and we're gonna stick it out. I'm happy with the outcome, but not with the way it happened lol
I started seeing a therapist when things were bad, and I haven't been back since the accident because I've been taking care of things at home, but I think I need to go back. I'm still just sad. Sad about a lot. I never used to be this pessimistic and downtrodden, so it's weird and I'm not diggin' it.
Jay and I are also gonna try to sell our house. With my school job, the work was super rewarding but the money makes it impossible to keep up on bills and mortgage and all. So, we're gonna try to move into something smaller. If I get the new job, life will be easier, but we still think we're gonna do it. Something simpler.
We're also going on our first alone vacation since we've been married. We have never gone on a vacation together without it being derby, with friends, with family, or with the kiddo. So, we went through a bunch of our stuff, sold a ton, and he and I are going to Las Vegas at the end of the month. I'm pretty excited.
I think that's it. You're officially all caught up, if you still read this. Life is, well, it's life. It's up and it's down and it's in and out. But I'm still here. Sorry for taking up so much space on your friends page today :)
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