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Who am I?
A conversation with the misses today got me to thinking about whether or not I really know who I am.
5 years in college, what have I learned? How have I grown as a person? Have I reached the infamously sought upon point of self actualization?
It seems to me like I live my life as a series of paradoxes.
I mean, I am educated and eloquent enough to blend in with the businessmen on Wall Street, BUT STILL hood enough to chill wit my niggas in Compton and smoke a blunt on the block.
I am feminine enough to the point where I cry freely, love getting head, and can still work it in a skirt and some heels; BUT STILL studish enough to throw on Timbs, baggy jeans, a fresh white tee and a fitted and have the ladies all over me…
I am conscious enough to realize that although slavery has long ceased there still certain inequalities that exist in today’s society which must be eradicated before we as a people can progress as expected; BUT AT THE SAME TIME I am foolish to the point where I still call niggas niggas, and at times I can be just another example of a weed smoking, fried chicken eating, materialistic ass stereotypical NIGGA from the ghetto.
That is why I truly embody the term “versatility,” b/c I believe that I am versatile in everyway not just appearance wise.
Why is society so concerned with labels and categories anyway? Why the overwhelming desire to peg people into one lil pigeonhole? Fuckin bastards!
I am vowing here and now to always be me, even at the expense of other people’s feelings, negative reactions, or sheer disappointment, I have to always be me.
True growth is measured by a person’s ability to feel absolute comfort and contentment in one’s skin.
I have grown tremendously, although I will be honest and admit that I don’t always like the person I see in the morning but those times when I feel hatred towards me are now few and far in between.
For the most part, I am happy being me, and I am secure enough to rely on my inner strength to get me through obstacles.
Who are you?