am i?
people suck. i effing hate this shit... emo moment i know, but i just need to vent. doing this publically, so tacky, but hopefully you ppl don't really mind. i just need to do. see and by doing this, i don't have to specify who this is directed to . lol. well.. anny ways if you know you know if you don't then oh well... right . well anywhoo.... ya well maby i don't hate life, maby it is just i hae some of the ppl who have forced themselves into what i like to call my bubble. lol. they have eather done this by accident or forceably, i still have to distinguish them from oneanother. well ya i have tried to give my self time to be alone, but it doesn't always work out like that. sometimes, i think it doesn't work because i have the tendancy to always please people befor i can even think about myself. eventho i may comeoff as a bitch, i thik it is because I need someone to tend to me, and i don't want this comment to sound( look) like as if i alays need attention, i mean this as like i just need to have someone to tell ME that am ok, and that every thing will be better, and that I am love. i mean don't get me wrong, i know my friends love me, but... not to come off like as if i am so effing needy, or like as if this is a plee for someone....i need someone to love me more than that. miss having my gf call me up and say... lets go lay under the stars. i miss having someone to cuddle with. i miss that whole feeling. does this make me a bad person for wanting this so much. i am just so used to being there for everyone emotionally, and now i just want someone there for me. and i really don't want to come off as a needy ass person, but this is just how i feel