lum-dee-dum-dum
lalala. i am so effing bored. i am avoiding doing my hair and getting dressed right now. i am stuck in my chair. i don't want to move. so i wirte. im not writting to you, but i qm writting to you. you know who you are, and i am tring so hard not to make this public, but yet at the same tome you already are, it is just a matter of who you are around. i want to talk to you, but at the same time i don't want to say a word. as i open my mouth notice nothing comes out. i am parallized from the neck down, but i don't care. you are just another moving figure in my life. as i listen to my music box, i start to wonder what if life is just one bi ass music box? what if we arer all just ment to move in the same effing way and move only with the people that someone chooses. i hate hat feeling, but at the same time love it. i love it because then i know that i am going to eventually end up with the one person that noone is going to bitch about, but at the same time i hate it because i want to choose the person who i end up with. but, maby i should just settle and throw out all of my morals, and just stick to the norm. maby. but as of now i hold to them strong, but at the same time they are slipping o so fast away. i try to hold on, but it is so hard.