Trying to sleep is useless
There is no such thing as sleep. I can't sleep. I'm a stupid girl. It's amazing how you can go one day with virtually no sleep, sleep 11 hours the next and then not be able to sleep the day after that. Such is my life. Is that a sign of depression? No sleep, then oversleeping? Hm... I always feel like I can fall asleep in a second, but when I'm ready, I feel like I can, but I can't. It's almost as if my body is fully awake and my mind is on overdrive, but... I don't know, I guess I'm just emotionally drained. Really, fucking... drained. I want to fall asleep for the next year or so... if only I could. I think I just keep draining myself, not intentionally, but by staying awake I'm just drawing more and more blood. Oh, hell. Fuck me.