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My dad never knew I had a cell phone.
Or that my sister had a tattoo. We
kept so much shit from him, and I
miss that so much. I miss him so much
and I just wish I could talk to him.
And I'm so mad that no1 knows how I
feel. You expect your parents to die
when they're old and have lived life.
After your dad has walked you down the
aisle at your wedding. After he saw you
graduate high school and college. My life
just feels so un natural because of that.
And because I dont have any family at all.
Everyday something reminds me that I
don't have a dad. Whether it be filling
out forms for school and college grants
and having to leave the "fathers name and work
number" spaces blank. Or hating the 5th of
every month because thats when he died.
Or Father Day and his birthday. It's just
so fuckin hard.
Or that my sister had a tattoo. We
kept so much shit from him, and I
miss that so much. I miss him so much
and I just wish I could talk to him.
And I'm so mad that no1 knows how I
feel. You expect your parents to die
when they're old and have lived life.
After your dad has walked you down the
aisle at your wedding. After he saw you
graduate high school and college. My life
just feels so un natural because of that.
And because I dont have any family at all.
Everyday something reminds me that I
don't have a dad. Whether it be filling
out forms for school and college grants
and having to leave the "fathers name and work
number" spaces blank. Or hating the 5th of
every month because thats when he died.
Or Father Day and his birthday. It's just
so fuckin hard.