i miss him.... is that bad?
so my summer has been going pretty AMAZING! me n matt are doing good, my tan is pretty sweet, my cars running beauitfuly, n dance really hasnt been all that bad... well its ok....
im so exited! i start my job at sonic next week! CANT WAIT! n dance is OVER as of this saturday!
about the only thing thats going wrong is how much i miss ryan! i really do miss talking to him n just hanging out, but i do understand that it hurts him that he want to be w me but cant so i guess that to make him alittle more happy, i should just leave him alone, even though its killing me inside! ugh! n theres really no one i can talk to about it becuz im pretty sure matt doesnt want to hear about this, n um if i talk to gaby shell think that i DONT want to be w matt n e more (which is NOT true) n if i talk to lina it will get back to matt, n that will be bad, n when i talk to tanya it just makes me say n jealous becuz ryan still talks to her n flirts w her n yea... n i miss that being me.... (i mean i could live w out the flirting becuz hi, i have a boyfriend) but i do miss the talking...
ugh!!!!
wel ne ways, dance today till like 8 probly, n then i dont know what im doing, probly coming home to sleep, which i have NO probly w at all! im think im going to actually TRY to realex the rest of this week.... well see how far i get w that idea, lol <33
im so exited! i start my job at sonic next week! CANT WAIT! n dance is OVER as of this saturday!
about the only thing thats going wrong is how much i miss ryan! i really do miss talking to him n just hanging out, but i do understand that it hurts him that he want to be w me but cant so i guess that to make him alittle more happy, i should just leave him alone, even though its killing me inside! ugh! n theres really no one i can talk to about it becuz im pretty sure matt doesnt want to hear about this, n um if i talk to gaby shell think that i DONT want to be w matt n e more (which is NOT true) n if i talk to lina it will get back to matt, n that will be bad, n when i talk to tanya it just makes me say n jealous becuz ryan still talks to her n flirts w her n yea... n i miss that being me.... (i mean i could live w out the flirting becuz hi, i have a boyfriend) but i do miss the talking...
ugh!!!!
wel ne ways, dance today till like 8 probly, n then i dont know what im doing, probly coming home to sleep, which i have NO probly w at all! im think im going to actually TRY to realex the rest of this week.... well see how far i get w that idea, lol <33