because it feel nice,
YOu ask why i dont care. BUt its only because i do, i inmensely do truthfully. And to know i have brought miserable pain to someone i care about it is obvious i am going to dissapear and appear to be emotionless. I do care..... and it hurts, so its better to pretend i dont and push the pain away. Thats why u dummy.
*sigh*
life i sjust never going to be easy, like ever. i wish we could b frieds, i know we cant and i know its because of me, its always because of me. " why do you put me on a pedestal, im so high up that i cant see the ground below, you got it wrong, i dont belong here..."
love that song, he used to think i am saint, cant he just freaking see im human?? i too make mistakes i too am NOT a angel so take that stupid halo out of my head, its not mine to wear, trust me. oh wait.. you dont and i dont trust you end of story move on frickhead. i must of done something wrong for you to run from me, twice. its so late and stupid saying u realized what u had till you lost it. it is late, to the extreme. you should of learned to appreciate me from the begining, hell i know im hard to put up with, i cant put up with myself at all, but like they say for better or for worse?? and i guess my worse freaked you out and u left, u came back when i had already gotten stron and see no hope. it was 4 wonderful years of heavn and hell and trst me once i entered hell i promised myself not to come back to that pain. or near it, that door is close and unless you have sometype of magical power of removing memory of you leaving or the consequences followed then well talk, but for right now.. leave me alone, ur killing me. oh wit i been dead.
*sigh*
life i sjust never going to be easy, like ever. i wish we could b frieds, i know we cant and i know its because of me, its always because of me. " why do you put me on a pedestal, im so high up that i cant see the ground below, you got it wrong, i dont belong here..."
love that song, he used to think i am saint, cant he just freaking see im human?? i too make mistakes i too am NOT a angel so take that stupid halo out of my head, its not mine to wear, trust me. oh wait.. you dont and i dont trust you end of story move on frickhead. i must of done something wrong for you to run from me, twice. its so late and stupid saying u realized what u had till you lost it. it is late, to the extreme. you should of learned to appreciate me from the begining, hell i know im hard to put up with, i cant put up with myself at all, but like they say for better or for worse?? and i guess my worse freaked you out and u left, u came back when i had already gotten stron and see no hope. it was 4 wonderful years of heavn and hell and trst me once i entered hell i promised myself not to come back to that pain. or near it, that door is close and unless you have sometype of magical power of removing memory of you leaving or the consequences followed then well talk, but for right now.. leave me alone, ur killing me. oh wit i been dead.