fuck tickleberry.
I knew it was too true to be true.
I guess i deserve it. In a weird karma cruel way, though any way i always end up getting screwed up.
You know TB, You really pissed me off. See.. i should of locked you up. Stayed where u were. I told you that stuff does NOT EXIST. i dont know what dilusional world u think there is. You know that place fuzzytown? Ya! dont exist. Its an illusion of false hopes and broken dreams. As you enter fuzzy town everything seems nice and unreal, then as the veil falls down u see that it doesnt. Too bad it felt good pretending it was.
I guess i was too desperate to one day find it again. Yet i forgotten what pain felt like, I been a zombie for a long time when TB came back life seemed hopelessly brighter and it started to breath.
I really wish Andrew would of never done anything, or at least skipped out in one of the girls and therefore just be one mistake not two. I SO wanted to overlook it but magic died!! how do u bring back magic and pixie dust after its destroyed? long distance with lots of phone fight and u fighting ur own battles on ur own the entire year and u having one year of hardships??? then moving back in and being THAT EASY? No pixie dust there. Its gone :( Gosh if i could make it work i really really would but to see no work from his part, hell no. NO looking at that stuff and looking at other girls. im too paranoid to make that one work. :(
And YOU. Frick when did u show up? when and how? How did u come thru those walls?? How did i let myself get that vulnerable??? how did i let myself fall? WHo let me get this hurt again!!? god im such a fuckin hopeless case. i give up. AGAIn.
I guess i deserve it. In a weird karma cruel way, though any way i always end up getting screwed up.
You know TB, You really pissed me off. See.. i should of locked you up. Stayed where u were. I told you that stuff does NOT EXIST. i dont know what dilusional world u think there is. You know that place fuzzytown? Ya! dont exist. Its an illusion of false hopes and broken dreams. As you enter fuzzy town everything seems nice and unreal, then as the veil falls down u see that it doesnt. Too bad it felt good pretending it was.
I guess i was too desperate to one day find it again. Yet i forgotten what pain felt like, I been a zombie for a long time when TB came back life seemed hopelessly brighter and it started to breath.
I really wish Andrew would of never done anything, or at least skipped out in one of the girls and therefore just be one mistake not two. I SO wanted to overlook it but magic died!! how do u bring back magic and pixie dust after its destroyed? long distance with lots of phone fight and u fighting ur own battles on ur own the entire year and u having one year of hardships??? then moving back in and being THAT EASY? No pixie dust there. Its gone :( Gosh if i could make it work i really really would but to see no work from his part, hell no. NO looking at that stuff and looking at other girls. im too paranoid to make that one work. :(
And YOU. Frick when did u show up? when and how? How did u come thru those walls?? How did i let myself get that vulnerable??? how did i let myself fall? WHo let me get this hurt again!!? god im such a fuckin hopeless case. i give up. AGAIn.